Diary of A Mademoiselle..

Quotes..Quotessss...

2011-10-24T07:22:00.000-07:00

Well, recently I've been so in love with Quotes i found from fb and twitter...and here they are...some Love Quotes that most girls feel in reality. Love, makes us crazy, 10 times happier, 100 times worse for the heartbreaks, but still, everybody looks for it. Enjoy Reading :)

~ “The greatest irony of love: Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after they walk out of your life forever. And sometimes you’ll think you’re already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing they will never be yours again.”

~ "Please, don't tell me you like me when you're gonna flirt with other people. Don't tell me you miss me when you're go off missing other people, too. Don't give me pet names when you're giving other people pet names, too. Don't treat me like I'm special when you're making other people feel special, too. Don't tell me you care & later on make it seem like you don't give a fuck. Don't tell me you love me when you're not really in love. Just don't."

~ "Dear brain, sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him. Dear tummy, sorry for all the butterflies. Dear pillow, sorry for all the tears. Dear heart, sorry for all the damage. Dear me, sorry for being head-over-heels in love with him ♥"

~ "Everytime I look at you, I see you glance at me. Just admit you still love me, and I'll admit I never got over you "

~ "I'm sorry I mistook all our laughs, long nights, sweet texts & inside jokes as you caring. I'll think twice before wasting my time again."

~ "You die a little inside every time you see him and his new girl, even though you've convinced yourself your're happy for him. "

~ "One of the happiest things on Earth is when you know that you're in love with someone who is more in love with you. "

~ " Yeah, I miss you. I miss us. I miss having you to talk to whenever I wanted. But I know I have to move on, because this is pointless."

~ "God, Please make my dreams come true because I wanna spend the rest of my life with him."

~ " Thinking of you means "I miss you"
Holding your hand means "I like you"
Squeezing it means "I want to kiss you"
Putting my head on your shoulder means "Comfort me"
My hands on your waist means "Never let me go"
Biting my lip means "I'm jealous"
Staring into your eyes means "Do you love me?"
Winking means "I adore you"
Dreaming of you often means "You're someone special"
Being with you often means "I can't live without you"
And wearing your ring means "You're mine" ♥"

Game

2011-09-17T09:48:00.000-07:00

You surely know how to play this game. till there comes a time when Im out from my safety zone. But that's alright now. Ive come to my senses. and Im not gonna fall.

I know this is just a game from the start. a game that maybe going to involve feelings in it. but if you wanna play with me, sure I'll play with u. but till when? Till the one come and tell me that Im his only one. and when that day comes, dont ever regret what you dint do. cause by that time, I'll stand beside someone who know how to treasure me and making me his forever.

Hearts

2011-07-10T07:25:00.000-07:00

Ever think how good you are as a friend? Ive been thinking about it lately. Some says its impossible for a girl and a boy becoming best friend. I don't agree about it at all. Can say that i got lots of boy friends whom i can share everything with. and i love it so when they are around. They have been such a very good friend to me. But am I a good friend for them? That's still a question. I hope I'm a good friend to them. We shared so much things together. laughter, jokes, fun times and tears. During their down times, Ive given my best supports and companions. I wish they can get up soon and move on. I know that during down times, all we need was a companion. Its okay whether they shared their stories or not. But as long as there's a friend around, we'll feel better.

I've ever have that kind of experience. It's when i was so down back then. sitting alone and thinking what i gotta do next. those kind of pressure and depression just come all sudden. Then, a friend of mine came so unexpectedly. *Surpriseeeeee* I was speechless. then we talked. and I was feeling lot better with him around. Though I dont tell him what has happened and how depressed i was that time, but just one word "Companion" makes me feel better. Dunno whether its a joke or talking about anything unimportant, as long as there're friends around, I'll feel better. even for awhile would do.

Since then, I know what a friend should do and what "friend" means. There're quite few things that we feel not suitable to discuss with our parents or families. then whom should we run to? a friend!

So friends, Thanks for everything you've given to me. During my down times, you gave me your best supports, solutions,jokes, laughters and everything that makes me forget about my probs for a while. I love it when you are around. You are the best of the best friends in my lives. Hope I'm a good friend for you as well.. *Hearts*

Im feeling.... peace

2011-07-04T06:00:00.000-07:00

Well, after my resignation, everything going better and better. honestly, Ive never been so good for the last half years. Am I taking such a right decision? still dunno as I havent start helping mom with her business. but i guess im taking a right decisions. Im sick with this job. and i just know that lots of my colleagues are going to resign as well. I have never realise there'll be lots and not just one or two. This company really getting worse as they said they're going to improve their system, and plan to double their revenues. but in reality, they really dont have any idea what they are really doing. Luckily i left before any changes happening here. i guess things will not going to be better. they even make it worse.

Im feeling happy. so happy actually. lots of great things happen recently, after my resignation. going to Singapore, another holiday trip during Islamic new year and so on. till Im kinda afraid that it just come in a while and will disappear in a very unexpected way. For the past half years, things have not been good. will things get better for the remaining half years of 2011? Hope this is a good start!

Have been accompanying a friend of mine for the past few days. hope my companion will help. you know it for sure that you can always count on me. no matter it's from the past till now or till the future. I'll be the very best friend for you ;)

Good Luck, my friend. you still have me, have us with you. as long as you believe, you'll get up and move on. Just like me.Ive been keep on praying for my happiness to come. I nearly give up on this life. but now i feel this peace and happiness in my heart. Thanks for all these, God. hope You wouldnt take it from me. Sincerely, Me.

Singapore AGAINN ????

2011-07-04T05:37:00.000-07:00

Singapore again on 13th to 17th July ! Happy? Of Course ! Its my short trip and Im going alone ! How can I be not happy about it?

Plan for this trip are all about meeting my best friend and best cousin ever. and also eat, eat and shop, shop, shopsssssssss!!!! Lol... Im soooo excited with this trip. havent been to singapore for the last 7 months, Im so missing my second home country..!!

Meeting my cousins...fiuhhhh....so many things we'll do together. we'll do our favourite culinary trip, watch movies, and chat at either Starbucks, Coffee Bean, or Tcc till late! wahhh..super excited as I havent meet him for quite few months ady and we surely have so many things to share! going to spend the last two nights with him while going to spend my second night with my uni friend. well, actually i dont wanna meet her at all as she was such a very annoying person to me. can u imagine how she always bother me everyday of my life? complaining about her boring life and everything?nothing positive about her at all ! Fiuhhhh.. people say, better stay away from friends who have negative views about everything as that will affect your life as well.and i guess that is right.meeting her is the last thing i wanna do there. ;(

Eat, eat and eat... okay, i know im fat ady. but i really cant stop myself from culinarywhen im in singapore. it's singapore okay? you just can go there once or twice a year! better eat what u wanna eat! I've been so tired dreaming about my favourite foods in sg. and now Im going to eat them all personally! lol.

Shop, shop and shop... This is a must ! Forever 21, Mango, Zara, Mphosis, Cotton on, n bla bla bla.... omgggg.... Im dying for them! gonna shop alone and that's what i love the most as I dont need to wait for anyone and just buy what i like. a save of time ;)

What i gotta do now is counting down the days..It's in a week's time ! I hope time fly faster but getting slower when Im finally at my second home country ;p

Bye Jobs !

2011-06-26T03:59:00.000-07:00

I handed my resignation letter few days ago (finally).. My boss kinda shock receiving my resignation letter. I know its quite sudden.. and i hope to quit by the end of july. Know why so sudden?

I keep on thinking about resignation since a month ago. before the promotion thing. Do I really heart my job? Is it what i'd like to do everyday in my life? with that amounts of salary every months? Am I really feel happy with what i do now? and after such a long thoughts that stressed me out, I came to an answer. I dint love my job at all. I dont wanna do this everyday of my life with that amounts of salary every months in my account. Im bored. truly bored and Im sicked of this job! Then the decisions come after i know what I should have been done earlier. The reality that Ive been hiding from all the time. Its time to face it!

I know its kinda weird for all peoples out there. "Do you really wanna quit? when your career just begin to rise? Its a promotion babe! please think about it again !" its a statement that everybody said to me knowing about my resignation. I know its too sudden. I really think to resign by last tuesday. I feel like Im going to be crazy soon. for being so stressed over which path should i take in my life. and finally I made a decision after I talked to Mom. asking whether she's fine if I quit and help her with her business. and her reaction was just like what I predicted. she's so happy with my decision. cause in the end, who'll handle her business if its not me? I do think that its better to start now. when mom still can help me from the start. I couldnt imagine if someday I should learn this business in an express way. I really cant do it for sure. thats why i think of resign, and start helping my mom.

On thursday, I handed my resignation letter to my boss in credit department. and I personally talked to my HR Manager about my resignation and it has been approved. but still not sure whether I can quit by the end of July.

Ive never feel so peace like this for such a long time. I know Im making a right decision as i saw happy faces of my family. This is not an easy decision at all. I should learned from the start in which will take such a long time. and thats why I prefer this time in life to start learning this business. Its time to grow up and accept the reality that i should face sooner or later..

Regarding my job now, huhhh..there's so many things that i need to teach my partner and the newbie soon..I hope they dint give me a newbie as its so hard for them to learn things in a month's time. and my other colleagues, I feel kinda sad leaving this bank because of them. we shared quite lots of things together and they're such a very fun colleagues. and they kinda sad hearing about me quitting soon.. Im going to miss u all :(

Last but not least, Wish me luck and success in the future. going to learned from the start..and i wish to reach the top :)

SIGH

2011-06-18T22:42:00.000-07:00

Feel depressed about your work? That kind of burden you feel every morning of your life instead of feeling happy about going to work? That's what i feel. Owhhh... Jobs really sucks !

I got promotion last month and my promotion to Marketing Officer will starts by this July. Am I feel happy about it? Firstly,Yes. But now? No!

Firstly i feel happy. happy with the fact that what I've done, my contributions to this Bank has been seen by my bosses and what i get in return? A Promotion !
But promotions means more works to be done. more pressures to handle. Do I have enough strength to endure it? I guess not. As I myself already have lots of things that stressed me out. I dont think i can handle another pressures in my life. I dont have that confidence. Am I stupid? Yes I indeed so stupid for feeling so bad about this promotion. Promotions on the other hand means a way to a better career. better future..

But what can I do if I dont have that confidence at all? Im sick of this job. wanna look for another job that I'll love. and I'll feel happy every morning of my life with my lovely jobs awaits me. But what kind of jobs that I'll love? I dont get any idea at all. All I want now is a break. be away from this job. resign maybe? and start looking for jobs after I rest enough..Yeahh... that was just a dream. the reality is,by tomorrow I still have to wake up in the morning, feel so burdened, go to work and face the reality....*SIGH*

With You Until The End

2011-04-16T09:15:00.000-07:00

Tracklist :

01.獨一無二 – Only You
02.美麗的誤會 – Beautiful Mistakes
03.拼什麼 – Hero In Vain
04.Touch My Heart
05.舞所遁形 – Nowhere to Hide
06.怕安靜 – Silence Phobia
07.強出頭 – Brave Death
08.忍住 – Pains Swallowed
09.口頭纏 – MagicWords
10.愛享瘦 – Let Love Show
11.拼什麼 (獨秀知音版) – Hero In Vain

Extras :

01. 一萬零一夜 - The 10001st Night
02. 陪你到最後 - With You Until The End

陪你到最後 - With You Until The End MV

"陪你到最後 - With You Until The End".. Ever have someone like this?that no matter what happens, he/she will stay by your side? Its rare ! Even sometimes bestfriends cant do this either..But I do need this kind of companion. Im loving this song ! the songs that he wrote for his fans as he knows that no matter what happens, his fans will give him the best supports and he'll overcome all obstacles in his career as long as his fans keep on supporting him.
I keep on repeating this song along with Aaron Yan's 只看見妳 (I Can See Nothing But You) lately. Show Luo's my favourite singer, host,dancer, and actor. His new album"獨一無二 – Only You" is awesome. cant get bored of it. and his songs always accompany my day.every morning and nights. see how much i love him? :)

Bleeding

2011-04-16T08:50:00.000-07:00

Today, once again...I witness the happiness of others..without getting the idea of when mine will come.. Im kinda feel bad today..so weird having this feeling right? Im supposed to be happy for them.and yes, Im happy for the two couples. but between that happiness, I envy them. for having such a great partner for each other...

Then here I am...home earlier today as I actually feel kinda weird going out with the two couples. better stay at my rooms. with my lappy, dvds, novels n musics..

I hate loneliness. but sometimes its better to be alone and happy rather than having lots of peoples around but feel so empty. know what? I can fake a smile.or even a laugh. Im good at acting happy in front of others. and no one will know that Im bleeding inside. Funny,huh? for playing fake to others. But I think thats good. for not ruining others mood by showing how i really feel..

In the end, Im bleeding again today.bleeding inside.drowning to my own nightmares by seeing too many happiness in front of me. Im selfish.dont I?

只看见你(I Can See Nothing But You)

2011-04-10T02:52:00.000-07:00

Aaron Yan from Fahrenheit has released his solo album few weeks back. and i really love his new songs.

Track Listing :

"下一個我" Xia Yi Ge Wo (The Next Me)
"只看見妳" Zhi Kan Jian Ni (I Can See Nothing But You)
"一觸即發" Yi Chu Ji Fa (Touch and Go)
"最後一眼" Zhui Hou Yi Yian (Just One Look) feat. Olivia Ong
"忽然之間" Hu Ran Zhi Jian (Suddenly)
"The Truth That You Leave" - Piano cover

"只看見妳" Zhi Kan Jian Ni (I Can See Nothing But You) MV

From this album, this song is the one i love the most..Its so illogical when things come to the word "Love".. There're millions of peoples out there.but there's only that one "him" or "her" in your mind and eyes...Ever feel that way? Of course everyone else does! This song represents all the people around the world who are falling in love and cant see anyone else but that someone special. Enjoy the song..

Crystal Clear

2011-02-06T01:36:00.000-08:00

Blogging..the only place i can throw away all my pain as i never have someone to talk about this...

Yes..we did talk (finally).from a simple chat, u finally tell me your stories with her and the fact that you have fallen for her. know what? i never knew that hurts me so. i never expect this fact, can hurt me this much. though i know we're just friends now. and things have changed.

You told me that was a secret.as you havent tell her bout your feelings. and you've fallen for her for almost a year ady. then, what am i to you? i always expect im the one for you. but i was wrong all the time ! Im just over confident with the fact that we used to be so close to each other. now i knew that im no longer the one.

I..with all my courage, asked you about the past. maybe i was crazy that time as it almost 2am ady. i always think that you'll be mad if i talked bout our past. but i was wronged again. you told me everything. all the things i wanna know stays clear that night. no more misunderstanding, no more awkwardness between us now. you said you never regret the fact that we used to be so close that time. i just wanna tell you that, that moment that i spent with you were the best moments in my life..

Then, now i gotta say goodbye. to you, to our past, to everything that ever contains you and me. we have made things clear. and with our friendship now, i hope things will go even better than the past.

"The very last time i went crazy over you.starting tomorrow, I'll buried our past and starts anew.Im stronger than anyone else. and I'll be fine by time !"

李玖哲 Nicky Lee 不愛了 mv 完整版

2011-01-28T09:35:00.000-08:00

你的不快樂在心裡瀰漫著我們怎麼了
你在逃避著我在心疼著

是什麼在傷害著讓美好都遺忘了
你是背對的我是沉默的

我只好假裝我已不愛了催眠自己我們不適合
我放開你了我已不愛了說一個謊在離別時刻
就當作最後是我不愛了關上門以後就算愛你又如何

你快不快樂過得是否好呢我這樣想著
你在愛誰呢誰在想你呢

是什麼在反覆著讓回憶都翻起了
你是遙遠的我是孤獨的

我只好假裝我已不愛了催眠自己我們不適合
我放開你了我已不愛了說一個謊在離別時刻
就當作最後是我不愛了關上門以後就算愛你又如何

是什麼在傷害著讓美好都遺忘了
你是背對的我是沉默的

我只好假裝我已不愛了催眠自己我們不適合
我放開你了我已不愛了說一個謊在離別時刻
就當作最後是我不愛了關上門以後就算愛你又如何

single!!!

2011-01-28T09:10:00.000-08:00

last week..i saw friend of mine.uni friend with a guy. then today,i met my another uni friend, at cinema.with a guy as well.. gosh..after months not seeing them, they now got bf ady. and me? still the one i used to be. .lol

LIE

2011-01-22T08:32:00.000-08:00

Do you prefer to live in a beautiful lie or a tragic truth? for me, I'd rather live in a tragic truth. Though "Truth" might hurt so much, at least thats the reality i should faced. No point to be happy with things that's not really there.and yes, Some people act irrationally. I hate that.. so much. there's no point to lie. I think most people just like me.prefer to live in a tragic truth rather than a beautiful lie.I've ever lie. so many times. and that hurts so many peoples around me. and i wished i'd never do that again. I know this applies to all of us. being lied by someone, just means another prob may arises. and i dont wish that to happen. So please, think before u act. things went smoothly when u lie.but you never know how the ends might become.

Stupidity !

2011-01-17T06:30:00.000-08:00

Will you feels like hell when you find out that the one that you were closed to, just go away when they have got what they want..and always come back with other purpose ?
It feels like hell to me.yes, i wanna be melancholic today.for whatever reasons, i think its not logical for whoever they are, to take advantages of others, and just go away when they got what the want..
I'll stop being stupid ! and i wont let others to take advantages from me anymore. just stop with this giving w/o receiving things ! Im tired...

迷路

2011-01-10T05:49:00.000-08:00

相同的梦全都是你
它夜夜提醒我
嘲笑自己的脆弱
记得吗两个人的爱情
就算失去一切也不后悔

再也没有为谁担心
你还在我心里留在过去

你给过的温柔我留着变成痛
我爱你才迷路
怎么走找不到尽头
你拥抱了自由我拥有了寂寞
学不会放弃
假装忘记你好难

你幸福了没有我也只能问候
你不属于我
我要忘记你好难

Friend - Life At Last

2011-01-08T08:41:00.000-08:00

You've gone now and Ive moved on..
Why cant things just stay the same?
Wonder whether its really the end of everything...

2011 with pain...

2011-01-01T07:56:00.001-08:00

My 2011 starts with pain..and almost tears...

Got a call from a friend. From a simple conversation, he suddenly told me how he felt about me. he said im such a very ego person. always judged things from one side w/o even bother to look at the other side. and looking good in front of others while i loved saying bad about them at the back.I was shocked that time. for real. Ive lived for 22 years and this is the first time in my life that there's somebody dare to talked to me like that. I was shocked. and i dunno what to say that time. all things that i know, I got no strength to debate as i know I'll never win when i talked to him. a very stubborn person.But that's hurt. way too much. as i never expect someone like you, a not-even-close-to-me-friend, dare to talk to me like that.

There's one things that i know. You said you always see things by all sides. but all i know, you're like what you said about me.You judged me w/o even give me the chance to explain things that you said. Then, what's the differences between you and me? so please, look yourself in the mirror and see who you are. If Im like what you said, then you are no way better than me, friend... I hope you dont do things like this to me again. stop hurting me with your judges, you dont even know me. so please look at yourself, understand yourself first, before you try to understand others.

You are too harsh by your words. dont even know which words were worth saying and which were not..I thought you have changed. but i was wrong..I wish you know how your words have hurt others. not just me, friend...There're lots of others out there that hurt because of your words. so please use your brain and think before you talk. not all person can accept a person like you. I'll try. though your words have hurt me soo..

Happy New Year Everyone !

2010-12-31T09:18:00.000-08:00

Im wishing for a great year ahead ! Though idk whether things will be getting better, Im still hoping that this year will be a better year.. after my two " crazy years ".Lol..

2010...
Ive always think that 2010 has been the fastest year in my life. in just blink of eye, 2010 has ended almost an hour ago ! Thats so fast. I still cant imagined how I've passed this last 12 months.
-My life full of loads of works (and loads of probs as well).. Ive worked for one year and three months! and last Tuesday i just got my salary and yearly bonus, etc.Lol
-My life with friends around since July. Vit has BFG and Vin often back here as he need to extend his visit pass. That time has been great ! and i love it so when they're around !
-My life with my loyal probs around. probs with friends, works, and maybe myself. ( as I haven't reconcile with myself )
2010 has been good...Thanks for all the great memories,laughter, joy, happiness, sadness, pain and tears =)

2011...
New Life... New Resolutions...
What will happen this year? still curios! Im still hoping for the best to happen..
Waiting for a new career, new life and new love ! Lol.. (cant consider a new love as i haven't been in love for such a long time) so lets find a new one..new love! hahaaaa..
- start looking for jobs in other banks next months..looking for a better career..hope I got it !
-Be less Emo... I need that so much =p
-Ego? A big NO NO !! should get rid of this things as it almost ruined everything !
-Be stronger...and have the guts to look at the reality in front !
-Let the past be the past..and i wont be bother by that anymore ! (Hope its easy!)

Im wishing everyone a Happy New Year 2011 ! Lets pray for ourselves and make this a better year =)

Walll...

2010-12-28T05:05:00.000-08:00

Finally you realised that ive changed. to someone you dont even recognised. isnt it? You took your way.and keep distances between us.. i know you want to protect yourself. and so do i. but why i cant accept this reality? that we are distances apart while in fact we are close. There's a wall in front. that keep us apart. i dislike this kind of feeling. the fact that we are like strangers to each other. why? i just want us to be friends. and best friends if possible. just that. even best friends seems impossible, i just want to break that wall. i want us to be the one we used to be. without those wall parting us and make things so strange around. what should i do?

Xmas...

2010-12-27T06:09:00.000-08:00

First day...

Woke up at around 8am, found out my car was stolen by my uncle. Im so mad that time.then i called him and he brought it back to me (Luckily). at around 10am, Im ready to picked Vin. after him, we're looking for a mat for our bbq that night. then we finally went to Lotte Mart (its so far, isnt it?), after there we went to picked Vit..then we went to Macan Yaohan, bought some bbq thingy, then picked my driver and after that we went for lunch at KFC. after lunch, we picked Lice and Jef then we're ready to go ! Arrived at around 6pm.. We figured out that the door keys were unable to open the doors. my driver and Vit tried to broke them and we finally entered the villa at around 7pm. got ourselves relaxed for a while when Vin, Vit and my driver still so busy with the doors. Me, Lice and Jef talked about so many things. Jef was a very extrovert person as he can talked about lots of things. till Vin shocked of what we discussed! LOL.

After dinner, we back to Villa. We chatted a lot. laughing out louds and i feels like the whole streets were full of our voices. we're 5.but when we laughed, its like 10 person in that villa =)

We're ready for bbq at 12pm. got the things ready and the bbq started at 1am. Vin and Vit were ones who were responsibles for the bbqs, when Jef was so busy with his cameras and took photos around. Me and Lice? just sit on the mat and laughing at that two guys. saying that they looked so suitable to do that job! The bbqs things look so delicious (believe it or not). the two guys were awesome as they knew how to make the sauce! hehee... Our BBQs ended at around 4am.

Second day....

Woke up at at around 8 plus. went out of my room when i also met jef out from his room as well. we found out that there's quite noisy downstairs. then i found out that my driver was talking to a stranger. that guy was looking for the owner of the villa. Then he talked to Vit, saying bout some villa thingy.we sat at the living room and chatted again. at 10plus, we took our bath and after that we all gathered in my rooms. I put on my make ups and do my hairs when they do their hairs as well. i also helped them with hairs. do some babyliss things! Lol.. we laughed alot at what i did with Vit's hair. hahahaaa.. I love that moments. its quiet rare when we can gathered and do these kind of thingss...We're ready for lunch at 12pm. during our lunch, Jef took lots of my candid photos and guessed what? I loved them so much! Its so natural..

After lunch, we went to temple and the new things called Taman Lumbini. The Taman Lumbini was awesome. but there're not too many things there. just go once and Its enough! we back to Villa and took some sleep. woke up at 6pm, continue with lots of stories from Jef and Vin. took our dinner at 8pm plus. after dinner, back to villa again, doing our Endless stories chatting, laughing out loud again. our neighbors were around 10 person plus, but our laughed really feels like there're 20 persons of us that night. we started our supper with french fries, sausages, and chic wings. found our we're out of gas for cooking. we out from villa and look for gas at around 12am. . our supper started at 1am. supper with full of snacks and beers.. the stories that Vit shared really left us laughed with tears. lol

Last day....

Woke up at 9am. and also gathered in my room doing their hairs. we ate our lunch and back to medan at 1pm. arrived at 3pm. all of us really dont feels like going home at all. we ended up go jcoing till 6pm.

This time holiday was fun.. with lots of unexpected probs and endless stories. the stories really make me laughed with tears so many times. and that bbq things, really eat till drop!
Love this xmas holiday. Its Fun as Jef also said that.. we planned to go again. but still looking for a perfect time =)

rich guys poor hearts

2010-12-08T06:05:00.000-08:00

Ever met such a rich guys but never willing to give out their money? I met these kinds in my family.okay. im not talking bad bout my family.but that's it. dun get why they can be so stingy to others. its my uncle. guessed wat. my grandma's join their trip to china. but he dint even willing to sponsor my grandma. he said that my grandma should asked her daughter to sponsor her and not him. GODD!! u know it so well that my mom and aunts were widows.and mom still has 2 kids to raised. where's your brain huh?i know my mom was willing to sponsor a bit. but as wat i thought, the one who should sponsor was him! as he was the richest here. He even bought a flat in Brisbane for her daughter and asked her daughter to stop working and enjoy life as he could give out all his money for his childs happiness. then you are not willing to give out some for your mother??? i really dunno what you've been thinking! you are super nonsense..and my mom and aunts kinda hate him. as he dint even know how to be the eldest in this family.

My cousin was back for holiday till march next year. and know what?he said that he has no cars to drive here. then my grandma lend him hers.the super irrational thing was. they have four cars. one for my uncle,one for my aunt, another for his brother and the last one he can drive right? and still..he insist to drive grandma's. i was pissed like hell as that means i don't have any car to drive for the next three months.and my cousin even told me to go office my bus.damn it! i really dunno how rich guys have been thinking. they have been out of their minds. that pissed me off so much!

My aunt told my grandma to asked her car back but still they said that they have no cars to drive.hell!! i hate it so much! rich guys never have enough.they have theirs but still need others. Damn it!!

Back

2010-12-07T05:02:00.000-08:00

Im back from holiday..so fast, isnt it? It was quite fun as my sisters always made me laugh along our holiday.lol..This holidayyy..hmmm...I ate alot actually.hahaaa..and feels like ive putting some weight again and again!! huhhhh!! how to put these fat away!

and this is my third times going to USs! quite bored as i know every single side of the USs ady!what can i say? Im just like a tour leader recently. taking my friends and sisters to the USs! Ouhhhh...I ate Chiliss as well..it was tasty!!hahaaa...

And Im back now..i still remember that ive promised to be so fine when im back. well..lets start anew by today.back to those times in life that i should stand by myself. okay. after these trip..i realised that maybe i can only trust and depend on myself. too much interactions with others just ended up hurting myself.and that kind of feeling was like hell. there's no one i could trust again.Im not that strong that i seems to be. I can laughed out loud in front of others. just to make them happy and make me seems happy. but no one knows how i felt inside. sad huh? i dun wan to be emo again. but how come this hurt never leave me?

Sometimes,i really dunno whether im the one who were nonsense or im the one who were rational. or im gone insane ady? dunno. i dont wish to have any hurting things again. i wanna find back the old me. the strong me that never scared of evrytg that's gonna happen. being me is not easy at all. i need to be much more understanding to be considerate to those who were irrational. yeaa..that's what im gonna do now. be lot more considerate and continue to be the one who sacrifice.till infinite time..

Goodbye!

2010-12-02T05:18:00.000-08:00

Im leaving for sg tomorrow.so sudden right? yeap. That's what i want right now.disappearing for a while..This time trip. 4 days.and I'll be back by Tuesday. No one knows about my leaving. I kept it as a secret..No one will know bout it.cause it's a very short trip.isn't it?

Im feeling so bad recently. Those probs ruined my mood for the past two weeks. i know im nonsense at all.and childish.that i leave just because of these.but the real things is. I just decided to go by today.with my two sisters.we've planned to go yesterday but as my passport was still in process, so we still not sure to go.

I texted you before.telling you that i felt so sorry for it.You said sorry for the second time.and as i read you text, Im feeling so good like hell. i just know i cant lose my friends anymore.for every nonsense things that i done.

Im fine now actually.after all things cleared, I'm feeling so well. I know you dont like those misunderstanding between us.but what could i say? i dun feel good bout it as well. You asked me to forget all these things. Yes..I know that's the best thing for us..But i still need to leave for a while. to clear up my mind.and I'll be back on Tuesday. and I'll be so fine by then.I promise!

Blank

2010-11-30T06:34:00.001-08:00

Ive never know it hurt this much.maybe i need my time alone. to cleared up my mind.but where should i go?there's nowhere i could goo..T-T

another misunderstanding

2010-11-30T04:58:00.000-08:00

After days of confusion, I finally got the time to speak up my mind. I knew my statement made you shocked.You dint say anything.Its just me who said all those things that i felt so uncomfortable with. You dint even said a word. I thought you're angry with me.angry of how childish I was.You texted me when you got home.You said sorry for what has happened.You know what I feel that time?I feels like crying out loud..There're too many misunderstanding between us. As what I said, I was tired. and I know you're tired of me as well.tired of how sensitive and childish i was.

As I see the truth, I knew I was wrong all the time. I'll fixed it. I dont want to be selfish anymore.You got the right to choose with whom you are more comfortable with. I dont want to be such a very childish friend for you. I know you've tried to understand me.but all I gave you was nothing except being selfish. I just realize Im that bad.. Im way too afraid that i'd back to those lonely times.but as i thought back, I realise that I'm just lonely all the time.and nothing could help with that.

Ive never been good as a friend.Im not understanding at all. Im not supposed to let you become such a bad person for others. Its just me who're bad.not you.blame me for things that happened. you dont even need to say sorry to me.cause Im the one who wrong. Sorry for all those selfish things Ive ever done. Ive hurt so many peoples in my life. I dun wanna do it anymore. Maybe its time for me to go back to my lonely times.Its good that there's only me.so that I'll never hurt anyone again.

Letter

2010-11-27T08:21:00.000-08:00

Looking for something in my shelves then suddenly something just dropped out from it.guess what? your letter. the letter that you gave me years ago. i read it back. i smiled. we've been thinking that life's just that simple. even there's lots of storm in front. we feels like it doesnt matter as long as we were together. i read our promises.and all those advices stuff you gave me. feels like im reading a kind of simple love letter. that really means a lot to me that time. even its not a real love letter.but i know your feeling. but i never know mine.

This letter tells everything. our secrets and untold stories were all there. does it mean something to you now? after so many years we are apart? For me, it does mean something as you have ever been a part in my life.an important part.an important friend for me.

After so many years, do you still remember our stories? or even this letter you gave me? i nearly forget them.as i always try to buried all those stuffs.cause i keep on thinking that i should forget them and start a new life.forget our stories.those things you gave me, sorry.i really lost them and i dont even remember them. so sorry for it. but i think its better if we start anew.like what we do now. a friend.

You and I know it best how to act like we have forget what has happened between us. those sweet memories...do you still remember?cause you were way too good at acting just like me.that i dont even know whether you still remember or you have letting go.

I read it back.I smiled and even laughed of how childish we were that time. life's just not that simple.like now.we've changed.you go your own ways and so do I. thanks for being a very good friend of mine.just like what you wrote in your letter. "I've never find a very good friend like you". I felt it as well. your warmth and all those things you've done for me, i'll nvr forget.Thanks for everything.may you have your brand new life and find happiness asap.and pray for me as well.

=(

2010-11-26T18:06:00.000-08:00

Its been three days.and what you've done still influenced me so much..I'm sad..being workaholic these days just help till the time i went home. i slept early to forget this hurt that comes every time i think of what you've done.have you ever been logical? NO! you've been so illogical that time.and that hurts me.

If you have the right to choose, will you choose us? from the way you talked and treat them has shown who you are and with whom you are more comfortable with. sometimes i thought, who were you actually? you are not the one i used to know. i understand that you are so difficult in this situation.you are neutral.but you know what? you just cant be neutral here.im just way too uncomfortable if you are neutral. i cant be myself.

I just smiled and laughed like Im so happy that time. is it the truth? nope. what you've done and what you said has hurt me soo. and i just pretend to smile.looking fine so that nobody knows my feeling. i dont want everybody to be uneasy with that situation. its okay. i can faced it alone.like what i used to do.

You think Im that big-hearted?no..cause you never give me the reasons behind what you've done. you never try to explained what has happened and you just pretend everything's fine.why? why were you always like this? i'm tired with lots of misunderstanding around us.with you always never even try to explained the real things behind. the truth.I dont want to be like this anymore.i've ever said that i'll be definitely tired someday.and yes. im definitely tired now. and i've given up on a friend like you.

From that time, i think i know what i should be doing.just stay as common friends.i'll nvr treat a person who ever hurt me as close or even best friends.here's just no place for you anymore. you're way too harsh by your acts.

Giving without receiving

2010-11-19T18:22:00.000-08:00

Hey, i always think that everything in life must go by both sides.we couldnt just give without receiving any returns.Thats what i thought..but too bad.seems like all im doing is giving.and im not receiving anything.either in friendship or anythings in life.kinda sad as im the only one who sacrifice things, giving things,passion, and worked so hard for this friendship..and what i received?none!

Im not expecting any returns. i just hope things can flow by both sides.without me always be the one who sacrifice things for others happiness.always make people laugh,forget their sadness,Im giving all these.and who cares when Im sad? no one..its good that im used to it.

But all things cant go this way.Im tired.extremely tired.and im nearly give up on these.Whats the point of giving so much passions, sacrifice all my important things just for them if they dont even care or doing the same things as i do? Im just asking for understanding.things cant go just by me.who always be the one active.

There's no point to care bout others who dont even care bout me.kinda regret all those sacrifying things ive done.

Maybe from now on, i should live for myself.think for myself and not for others..

Married?

2010-11-08T05:00:00.000-08:00

Well...how do you feel when one of your friends is getting married soon?
That's what happened to me.I was shocked! till i told her that April fool's day has gone so many months ago! Lol..

Yeahh..she's getting married soon..when I'm still single...
Is it me that enjoy my single life too much when I should have find someone for life? or is it her that get married too fast? Idk..but I was too shocked when she told me that she has already book the reception place and decided the wedding date since some months ago..Lol..

Anyway,Wish u all the best for your upcoming married life, friends!
Ive never thought that you'll get married that fast...(Since you said you wouldnt) =)

between real and unreal..

2010-11-08T04:48:00.000-08:00

Your existence give lots of meanings to my life..
What I gotta do?
Cant get you out of my mind...
Ive tried to tell myself that I've been thinking too much..
and maybe memories between us just come out so sudden..
That makes me kinda miss that time..
When we shared things together..
When I felt that you are the most comfortable person for me to rely on..
But now things have changed..
You and I were not the one we used to be..
And maybe its only me who still carry on our memories..
You have moved on..
But its getting hard on me...
I miss you in my life..

My best buddies, Make it last forever..!!

2010-10-05T06:59:00.000-07:00

I've back from holiday last week...Hmm..Its an awesome holiday!really..we ate a lot, shop a lot, and talked a lottt!!Lol..Those days when I was with them was awesome..for real...I love those two guys..Vin n Di...who have been my best buddies for the past six years...We chatted about lots of things...and on the forth night, we ( Me, Di, Vin n Lice ) chatted at TCC till 2am..!!we always spent our time thoughtfully..for where we're going, what to eat, shop, etc..Hey Its Singapore, u know? its Our Food and Shop Paradise!!

We ate our lifetime-favourite xiaolongbao from Imperial, my super favourite Fish n Co, and so on..We shopped together the last day..when Hadi has free ady since his father has back to Medan on our third day..He shop quite a lot..and one thing i realised when i shopped with them...we picked things quickly, got it tried, and paid the bill in less than 10 minutes..lol...I love the way we shop.we dint waste our time by think about it over and over again..that was a waste of time! Its holiday! just buy what u want when it fits, and the price was affordable!

On the last day we hang out together, i feels like crying when i said goodbye to Di and Vin..5 days seems so fast as Hadi just joined us on the third day. We surely feels like getting back to our uni life in sg...Its been 3 years since the last time we were in sg..sad..as Vin also said that he felt so sad when I'm back to Medan and Hadi back to US..Last year mood back again..when we were in Vin's car...but this was way better than last year...ughh...saying goodbye to them means the time we should go back to reality...Me, struggling with loads of works and a super strange boss, Vin, with all his job applications, and Hadi, struggling with his final year uni...

Then Im here now..in my lonely rooms..with my lovely laptop, iphone , and songs accompany my life.Im so tired of going out since I back from sg..dunno why..Im just way too addicted to Kdramas till i dun feels like going out at all.I want to be at home till infinite time..maybe till the time Im bored with these dramas and I got the strength to walk out from home (Except for work).

Am I feeling better?YES...dunno why..i dun feel like going insane since Im back from sg as I've promised myself and them..that I'll live my life with joy. and I believe things will be getting better and better..

Thanks for everything, Vin and Di...
You two surely took such a big part in my life..
Our Friendship...Make it last forever...=)

Holiday, Pals!

2010-09-11T08:27:00.000-07:00

Hey..Its holiday! I got 5 days to spend this year due to the Islamic New Year..Did you know how I spent it? Ive been at home for these two days..which means, I havent stepped out from home and see the world for two days..I spent this holiday by watching lots of dramas..Starting from Vampire Diaries, Calling Big Star, to Still Want To Marry..I watched them all..and when I felt tired of it, I started to watch movies...and till know Ive watched I Love You Beth Cooper and The Bounty Hunter...I watched all these from morning to morning...from 10am to 3 or 4am..See?Im so dying for dramas..till my mom was kinda scared of me...for not going out for two days..Its miracle for her! LOL..cause I used to go out with friends till late on weekends and we really have such a rare time to talk on weekends..:)

But not now...as all of them were on vacations overseas...I was the only one that left here..hahahhh..Its okay...Im used to it..and Im gonna have my holidays soon..so, just stick with these dramas...Happy Holiday People!

SG..Again..

2010-09-04T08:16:00.000-07:00

I got my holiday on 23rd September this month! I bought return tickets to SG at 2am last saturday..Crazy..isnt it? Its all happened because of my bestfriends..Vin and Adut..that always convince me to go SG that date...since Vin has back couple days ago..and Adut will transit there at 23rd till 28th, Its a good reasons for us to gather there..flashbacking our DE times! Miss it sooo..

Actually I've planned to go there at that time as well..But still not sure bout the tickets price and all those leaving permission things..till that night, Vin and adut always told me how fun it will be if we gather there! Goshhh..Im really tempted! and I bought the tickets that night! the tickets quite cheap luckily..heheee...Lice was tempted as well and she joined the trip! I got my leave permission from my office by yesterday and here it is..we'll gather in SG! the fifth of us...Me Lice Vin Adut and Mike..Vit's not coming cause he just back from KL and are now on the trip to China with his family..Lol..

Im dying for the trip..Its SG ! my heaven life is there! and this time, I have all bestfriends when I'm there! how can I be not excited? I love it!

Have told Vin to buy USS tickets first..cause I dun wanna take the risk of not getting any USS tickets on that day..its better to buy in advance right?ughhh...Im dying for all things in USS..the shops, views and coasters..lol...Its gonna be in about two weeks..and I gotta make lots of list for this trip! We gonna do our culinary hobbies, shops, and take picts around..Its gonna be the most exciting holiday ever !

Thanks for the courage and strength you gave me..

2010-09-04T07:35:00.000-07:00

Have you ever believe that Friends can give you so much strength and courage when they told you " Everything will be fine " ? I do believe it..and Im feeling so much better now..even my friends not here anymore...Some of them went overseas..for holiday..and Vin has back to sg...looking for a job there..after his nearly 2 months so-called-holiday here..

Im happy with them around..kinda miss them now..huhuuu..but its fine..cause I know even a year or more will never be enough for us...We used to hang out every friday and Saturday ( Okay, we're not asking the rest. just the four of us ) Sometimes we have our breakfast together on Sunday and continue to Matador for coffee till afternoon..I enjoyed it so..and Im feeling so well when they were here...Like no matter what happened and what problems Im facing, I feels like nothing to be scared anymore..funny huh?but its true..and they give me lots of courage and happiness..I do passed all my days by laughter and joy..just by thinking of how funny we are..with those jokes and laughter around...

They said things changed like time changed...Its true..There's so much things changed here..the one who I used to know better than anyone else, turned out to be a stranger to me..and maybe she's feeling the same way...That's my fault..I started all these..Im becoming so crazy that I ruined all things around..do I regret? YES!! I regret all the things I've ever done to them..that maybe has hurt them so much..Sorry for everything..I dint mean it..Its just my fault..I was under lots of pressure that time..and I nid more time alone..thinking bout the next step of my life..while trying to cope with my life here...Im not talking bout the reasons why I've been lots of stress till now..Only Vin knows it..cause I dunno how to tell them..and also dun want to burden them with my problems and all these unrealistic things...I just nid to be alone..and I thot that's the best thing for me..but I neva know that I'll lost lots of my friends because of these...

Maybe that's why I've been feeling so much better when I have my cousin around..and some friends that choose to make me laugh instead of asking me what has happened and why I've been in lots of pressure.Its a personal problems..Im the one who wrong..that make me lost everything..till that day come..when I asked myself.."Do I still have the chance to fix everything? If yes, How?"

Love it when you are around...

2010-08-10T05:39:00.000-07:00

This is the first time for the past one year that I feel happiness around...Know what? Coz I have my best friends with me...That means more than enough..With them around, I nearly forget bout my sadness, all those stressing things...just smile..laugh and feel happy..with them beside me..

July 31st...
We hang out again..the four of us...Vin picked me up at 15.00..I've bought tickets for "Salt" showing at 16.50..I texted Vin before as I knew he will be late..He dint reply..till i heard my sister called me from downstairs..telling me that Vin has arrived...Then I asked him why he dint replied..he said that he knew he was late and afraid that I would scold him..LOL..Then after Lice, we went to Sun...and as we dont know what to eat that day, we decided to go for Pizza...hehehhh...after PIzza we go for the movie...Yeapp..the movie was cool...Love Jolie there...She's so pretty!! We out from cinema at almost 7...went to eat sour sally as Vin never try it before..Then we headed to Jittlada...The greenteas was great! much more tastier than Starbucks one! Lol..We did chatt about lots of things, took lots of picts as well..from jittlada we went to Starbucks...tooks photos againn...( my camera always stand by in my bag now ) :)
Back home at almost 23.30..

August 6th....
We have agreed to hang out that day.Vit was the one that was still uncertain...Coz Vin's car was used by her sister, we all depends on Vit..hahahhh...he dint give any certainty till 5.30pm...our text ends up with no reply..and nobody answered our calls..See? he's such a great person..for letting me waiting at Sun..like an idiot!! Firstly, Ive told Vin to give me a certain answer whether or not we're going out that day..and I'll wait them at Sun...Then, when I decided to call my mom to picked me up, there comes a call from him...and as expected, I scold him like crazy! But his answer was just a huge laugh!!Lol..he said he was ready to picked Vin..Then I wait again..till they come and we decided to have our dinner at "Dome"...I still remember how Lice called Vin and ask him where we were by now ( as She's coming late )...and I heard Vin said " Belom..Belom..Belom"..I took it as a joke by saying to Vit that he's got an indonesian lady while suddenly Lice came in and said that she was the one who called just now..and Vin was saying " Dome..Dome..Dome instead of Belom..Belom..Belom" hahahaaa...We all laughed like crazy..also..the "Bu Vincent" tragedy was unforgettable! after dinner, we really confused bout the place we gonna go..then Vit requested to go for singing at K2...(Hellow..Its 21.00pm ! But its okay..;p)We then headed to K2...and guessed what the funniest thing we found there? the waiter..asked whether we were on a double date by specifically saying that I'm with Vin and Vit with Lice...We're soo shocked! The three of us ( as Vit was on toilet that time )..The waiter said that nicely and with such a big smile...after the waiter gone, three of us laughed like crazy till I was like bursting into tears..wakakaaa...Then goes the karaoke thingy..we like duet songs..but the boys was too likely change the lyrics..from a romantic song into such a weird songs..hahahaaa....the waiter come in again..to serve the drinks we ordered..then she looked at Vit and asked why he dint sit with Lice (Vit, Vin, Me, Lice)..We laughed!but Vit answer was too unbelievable...he said to the waiter that he's not in good terms with lice..they're arguing and dont feels like talking to each other..another LOL!!! and after that, whenever that waiter coming in, she always asked whether they're already in good terms with each other...Vin n I tried to make things more funnier by saying " We're trying to help!" LOL...the karaoke thingy that last for two hours seems so fast for us..but Its 23.30!!Vit feels like plusing the time but too late, we've paid the bill..we finally went back..and I reached home at 00.00am!!

Starbucks July 31st (Lice, Me, Vit and Vin)

See??How can I be not happy with them around?I Love themm!! Vin..my best cousin and friend..who know me best cause we are like twins..we have same thoughts, same taste, and same hobbies! Lice..the one who always accompany me everytime...We shared everything..every stories..we went for movies, 'bucks, and shopp together..Love her!! Vit..the one that is so funny..who always cheer us by his humorous and silly acts..I feel comfortable with themm..with lots of jokes, silly arguments and laughter that almost lead to tears..Lol

Im happy..really happy..as long as I have these friends around...
You're taking such a big role in my life, friends...
I wish our friendship and happiness we shared last forever..

Day with "The Best of The Best"

2010-07-17T09:46:00.000-07:00

Well...I couldnt believe its been a year since the last time I hang out with my best friends...yeapp..I still remember clearly how we feels like crying in Vin's car on the last day we hang out together...before Di back to US few days later..It's been a year...Time passed so fast..

Last week I was lying on my bed cause Im deadly sick when suddenly Vit called me..I didnt answer as I think its not important at all..he then left a message to my sister and insisted me to call back when i woke up..I called him an hour later..He asked me to go out...I said I was sick..Suddenly there's another person talking to me on phone..I thought he was Hen but in less than 5 secs, I screamed like crazy when I feels like his voice was so familiar to me...He's Vin!He's back!!Im dead happy...!!!He firstly thought of giving me a surprise by asking Vit to go out with me and he showed up at the place we met..but too bad...His voice was just too familiar to me...Lol..

Then two days ago we hang out (Finally) after my office hours..The three of us...Vin, Vit and Me..We had our dinner at Trattoria..Then we picked up Lice at 7 plus..We headed to Sun and had our supper there at Mr. Pancake...It was fun! Lol...

Todayy...We hang out again..The four of us...Vin picked me up at 2 plus (He's late actually)..We then went to Sun..had our lunch at Nelayan and we watched " Inception " after that...The movie was cool but a bit difficult to understand..We then had our dinner at Bakerzin ( What a romantic place ) ! we sat on the balcony..We talked about so much things and time passed really fast till we realised that it's 10pm plus...

I love it when I have my best friend around..seems like I got nothing to worry and everything seems to be so fine.I could live this life really well with them by my side..Im deadly need them...And Im so glad if I could live my life like this..Forever...

Idol dramas?Watch This!

2010-07-10T08:40:00.000-07:00

As I dunno what to do now...Lets discuss the top ten idol dramas I've ever watched..! ( Im a idol drama freaks! )hahaa..
Hmm...As I was a taiwanese idol drama freaks, Here's the top ten (Randomly) taiwanese idol dramas I'd recommend you to watch!

1. Autumn Concerto (下一站幸福)

Yeappp...This is one of the "Booming Idol Dramas " since mid october last year...Starring Vannes Wu ( personels of F4 ) and Ady An..This dramas contain a total of 20 episodes...As you can see from the poster..It was a sad drama...a very sad I think as I almost cried on each episodes...I do love the quotes from the poster..." 原来。。爱情从来没有离开过。。只是我记得。。你忘了。。" ( Actually, Love has never left before..It's just I remember,You forget ) Vanness and Ady An plays their role perfectly..and the appearance of their child in the dramas really makes the audience love this dramas completely!
Ratings : 10/10

2. Fated To Love You (命中注定我爱你)

For Drama Lovers, I think ya all watched this dramas! yess..It's the highest ratings dramas in taiwan...Beats Autumn Concerto as well...Starring Joe Chen and Ethan Ruan...I like the coupling actually..This is totally a complete drama..tells us how a simple girl met with a guy, ended up pregnant, get married ( unwillingly ), Miscarriage her baby, and so on..I love the plot so much! and I believe none of you will think that this is a lame drama after u watch it!
Ratings : 10/10

3. Miss No Good (不良笑花)

Starring Rainie Yang and Wilber Pan...kinda weird coupling as Rainie herself also said that..hahaa...This is a romantic drama with a great sense of humuor! When I first started watching this, I felt so irritated of how Rainie talks..but later on, I found it so funny and Im addicted to it...Lol..Wilber damn handsome with his style!Love him!
Ratings : 9/10

4. Brown Sugar Chivalries (黑糖群俠傳)

Shocked with the poster?Lol...Yeapp..For most people,this drama was unlikely being the top ten idol dramas..But what could I say? I love Lollipop so much!!hahahhh...Starring Lollipop and Hey Girl..genre martial arts and romance! I dun like martial arts at all...so, I just watch the part without martial arts!hahaaa...actually you should take a look at the martial arts ! Its so cool!
Ratings : 7/10

5. Smiling Pasta (微笑 Pasta)

There comes for Smiling Pasta...Starring Cindy Wang and Nicholas Teo...I knew Nicholas was such a great singer..but I never know he could be an actor as well...Just like the title " Smiling Pasta "..This drama makes us smile as we could see love around..This is a totally romantic drama starting from a girl being mistaken as the girlfriend of a famous singer and how her life changed after that...I love this drama so so much!
Ratings : 9.5/10

6. The Outsiders ( 鬥魚 )

The Outsiders..Starring Dylan Guo and Ady An..Such a long dramas...in 2004 I think..But this drama is good! I remember that I borrowed the VCD's ( There's not much DVD's that time!Lol ) from a friend of mine with no subtitles! ( As I dont understand mandarin that time ) I insisted to watch it as I heard all of my friends said this drama was so good...and Its all worth it! The drama tells how hard triad-life was...and the male lead ended up joining triads in order to protect the female lead...Should watch!
Ratings : 9/10

7. Prince who turns into a frog (王子變青蛙)

There it is...The Legend of Taiwanese Drama before ratings was beaten by Fated to love you and Autumn Concerto..Starring Joe Chen and Ming Dao.( Dramas that Joe Chen acts in always get such high ratings if you realised! ). Nothing I could say except...A Must Watch Drama!
Ratings : 10/10

8. Ying Ye 3 Jia 1 (樱野3加1)

Ying Ye 3+1..Starring Joe Chen and Ming Dao (again)...Story of Friendship, Love, Revenge..I love how Ming Dao acts in this drama..being cool, gentle and a bit mysterious..Lol..But too bad, after all romance part, I found this drama too much pressure for us to watch!hahahh..well..which means I do love the first 7-8 episodes and ended up stressing for the rest part of the drama..Lol..
Ratings : 6/10

9. MVP Valentine ( MVP 情人 )

Story of a Basketball player..From unknown to the champion..Great! Starring Tony Sun, Johny Yan and Angela Chang...Watching this drama makes me love basketball so much in means that I love watching basketball match and not playing basketball..hahaaa...This is also dramas with such a great soundtrack!we can found soundtrack from BOA as well..
Ratings : 9.5/10

10. Brown Sugar Macchiato ( 黑糖瑪奇朵 )

Yeapp..Im being bias again! hahahhh..This drama starred Lollipop and Hei Se Hui Mei Mei..This is a romantic and funny drama..I still remember how I was so sad back then...till I decided to try watching this drama..and it all worth it because it was so funny and a bit unrealistic..but this drama surely makes you laugh till drop...Do you feel stress lately? Watch This!
Ratings : 7/10

Lonely Saturday...

2010-07-10T07:51:00.000-07:00

Blogging again....I just realised I always update my blog on either saturday or sunday..hahaa...thats the consequences for being a lonely person..who dunno where to go and with whom I should go...

Well...I used to go out with John,Jef and Luvi...But now..after jef is on the track on chasing over a girl, I find it kinda weird for me to go out with them...the five of us..got what I mean?Feels like an idiot going out with two couples..haha...I know it's just my thought..they're not feeling that way i guess..cause they always ask me to go out with them almost every saturday night...yeapp..I just feel uneasy when that girl was sticking with me while jef walk behind...( I should give jeff more chances...haha..)thats why..Im considering not too often to go out with them...and which means...I may lose some friends again!huhhhh...that's the consequences for being single...just depends on friends to go out..or family..and if they're busy...I just stay at home..doing nothing...and find this city so small and boring!

And this is what happened today...after two days lying on bed ( cause Im sick! )..I went out with mom and sisters...just go to Ace and dinner..after that we went home at 8pm+...I was too likely waiting a call from a friend...whoever they are...asking me to go out..for a cup of starbucks or whatever...I just want to spend this saturday night like anyone else..sitting in starbucks till late...gossiping or laughing out loud..That's what I want..just that...simple right?But no calls coming in...and I could just desperately coming home...with my mind full of things that I could possibly do at home..and yess...its nothing!damn..!!

Speechless...

2010-06-19T09:27:00.000-07:00

Today's my grandma's birthday..we all families celebrate it together at taipan..yes, its the biggest birthday party we've ever had...with two VIP rooms..my cousin's bf was there as well....I dint talk much with him but from the first time I knew him couple years ago, I realised he's a good guy..with a good family background of course...

When I looked at my cousins and the happy faces of my families...I realised that he is the one that they are looking for..a perfect guy that fit the qualifications..

Then everything comes back to me..I wonder how my bf looks like in future ( as I dun have any candidates right now ).will he fits the qualifications?i dunno..and I dun brave enough to think of it..I'm too afraid...that he doesnt fit the qualifications...I'm afraid to see my families disappointed faces...and that makes my pressure bigger and bigger...till my headache comes and i feels like crying soon! I dunno why..I just knew I've been so sensitive these days.

I wish to get one asap..I dun feels like happy with my life now.I knew I got some friends that I could hang out with..every weekends...But every human also need a partner, right? I wonder how my life would be..with a bf around..will it be much more better?or even worse? I dunno. I just knew I saw lots of happiness on my cousins smile when she got one...

I saw happiness around me...and I wonder when will mine come...

I wish you leave me...

2010-06-11T05:33:00.001-07:00

I'm feeling bad today...Last day at office this week...I should be smiling right?
NOPE!! I was told to work OT by tomorrow...to help those marketing thingy..Shittt!!
I'm so pissed off!!!I'm not happy with it..although I'll get high pay for OT, I still prefer to enjoy my weekend..releasing all stressing things I have...
I back home and only to find out my aunties were having their dinner...I joined them (Unwillingly).
I asked whether I got a car to drive tomorrow...Her answer was just too harsh..she said why should she be so troubled whether I got a car or not..Goshhh!!!I hate it soo..I told her I had to OT and if I dint get a car to drive, I wont go to office...Then after they heard what I said..They start badmouthing...saying I should go to office whether I dint get a car to drive.Should be at 7am tomorrow ( Work start on 9am+ actually)...I feel so irritated...Those depressing things I used to have, come again..I dun like how they take control of my life...It's My LIFE!!! I controlled my own life! Not them! Yet they really like to messed with me..saying what I should done and everything just should go as what they think and said..It's OK if I asked for an advice...But they dint care I ask it or not...they just bla..bla..bla....and I should do what they said! Sorry..I'm not a princess!!and I'm sicked of it!!
I went upstairs only to find out how my sister was so lazy....We did quarreled as I dint like how she likes to shout at me! Heyyy..!!I'm the eldest and She SHOULD Respect me!!! Godddd...
I went to bathroom and did cry for 5 minutes..Idk...I'm so stressed today...I feels like wanna run away from home..Where I could have my own life...do what I want and like...and of course without anyone messed with my life..I dint have any freedom here..I'm sick...and I dunno how long it would last...

Nuts...

2010-05-26T05:05:00.000-07:00

They say..."Everybody deserve the best partner for their lives "....Is it True? I just realised that I never deserve the best for the word " Boy "...All comes were just not fit the qualifications..lol...
What's the qualifications then? Idk as well...It did change..just like season change..really..I myself also dunno what kind of qualifications fit me best...and that's the only reasons I still enjoy my single life..Not like some of my friends who choose to be in a relationship with someone out there...Or even got married in their early age..

I knew I'm not a Princess..who could pick any guy out there...But yess.."I'm that picky"...Its not easy for me to find my other half.I'm not like most people..who could just get into a relationship when they feel that the feels were just right..I'm not...I should be responsible to myself..I'm looking for a long relationship..that's why It's too difficult.really...My family's qualifications was too high as well..till I've ever think of letting them choose a guy for me..that suits them..and suits the qualifications..hahaa..I dunno whether I got the ability to choose my other half later in life..

Maybe some of you face this kind of problem..while some not...Did you laugh when you read this? " maybe "...lol...

What's the best solutions then? I know there will be no solutions...The only thing I could do was only...Hope..and prayyy!!hahaa...so lets...Hope and pray for me..

Even if later I got the worst guy ever, dont laugh at me for being too picky..maybe its just my destiny..But now...still hopeee and prayy..okay?I'll pray for all of you as well...for my friends.and for all who read this..may you get your other half as soon as possible!!

Best Regards...

Insanity...

2010-05-21T10:14:00.000-07:00

I knew I'm not the perfect person you're looking for...
From the history you've heard about me...
I knew...I'll never be the one...
Yet, I'm still too afraid...I'm too scared that one day..
I'd really fall for you...

That's called "insanity", huh?
Just by discussing something about you...
We're once afraid..that we'd fall for you...
Is it real?
Maybe I should just stop this insanity..
Before I'd become really insane...and fall for you...

Trippp..Trippp..Holidayy..Holidayyy...

2010-04-19T05:35:00.000-07:00

First day....( 14th April 2010 )

Reached SG at 11+...Went to check in at the hotel then went out to shoppp(again)..Lol...shop till late...Then I was back to hotel around nine...carrying my favourite pastamania,chic cutlets,sweet talks,and soooo mannnnyyyy things I bought at Orchard...at the time I started my dinner,Vin called me...We did chatted for such a long timee..gossipping and I told him what has happened currently...we gossipped till an hour plus then suddenly I felt itchiness all over my body...Goshhh!!I felt those itchiness on my neck during afternoon..and its all red..I stopped touching it and it became normal again..But why those itchiness come again?at night?all over my body?Goshhh...I told Vin that I'm gonna take a bath and would call him later...I really wish that after bath, those itchiness would stop...but what happened was...My face became all red when I started to wash off my make upp..OMG...My Convocation is Tomorrowww!!!How can I go with a face like that?after taking bath, I got myself changed and I went to hospital...which was luckily near to my hotel...It's 10.30pm and I went to the emergency room...I saw a doctor...he initially was about to give me an injection with high dose but he was so shocked when he found out that I'm going to hospital alone..without no one accompany me...He then give me an injection which was less drowsy..then I went back to hotel...on my way back, I called Vin and we still chatted till my Mom arrived hotel...We did laughed with the fact that my first day in SG was ended in hospital...LOL...

Second day...( 15th April 2010 )

I'm feeling good that day...Going to SIM at 10 after picked Renny up at Paragon...We waited for our friends in Bsc. Accounting n Finance...Their Convocation was in morning...After their ceremony, We took lots of photographs....It was FUN!!!to have gathering with lots of UNi-Friends...taking lots of photosss....
Then It's the time when I found out everything was a lie..WTF with going to sg on 10th april?All was a LIE! A Big LIE!!!GOshhhhh....I've been fooled for almost a year...GOddd!!
MY grads ceremony was at noon...and it started at 3pm...I got asleep during the ceremony....IT was sooo boringgg!!!!Then it ended at 4pm plus...I met up with Vin and Mike....I did told them to give me that UOL doll...and they really bought that!lol..Vin's said that he firstly think of buying that doll for me but he was afraid that I already got one...The doll was so cute..and I loved it sooo..We did take lots of picturess..all gradution thing ended at 6pm plus and I got back to hotel...We then went to Wisma Atria and had our dinner...

Third dayy...( 16th April 2010 )

My mom got an appointment for check up that day..and we went to hospital...I also saw a doctor which was specialised in cough and respiratory...I got cough for few months already...
After all those check up thingy, we then had our lunch at Din Dai Fung...I love the fried rice so muchhhh....We went to Bugis after lunch and shopped so much things there...

Fourth Day...( 17th April 2010 )

It's Universal Studio's Dayyy....!!!(Another Post)

Fifth Day....(18th April 2010 )

My last day in SG...My mom Bought me an IPhone..for my graduation gift....(Thanks mom!)...We then shopped again..mom bought lots of things...and our luggage were so heavy like hell when we back medan..hahaaaaaa....

It was quite an unique holiday..starting from having an allergy,end up in hospital,convocation,Uss...and those shopping thinggss!!!I'm gonna miss these days I spent in SG!

Days to Another Holiday...

2010-04-12T07:22:00.000-07:00

It's been a week since I back here...I've been soooo busy these days till I dint have time to update my blog....
First of all....my holiday....hmmm...all goes like what I expected...and it's an unforgettable holiday! Feels like crazy the first time we go club..hahaaa..but it was fun...and a day with Vin was also sooo funnnn....We went out from 11am to 2am...15 hours..sounds crazy, isnt it?hehehhhh...

I bought lots of things there..and planned to continue my shopping the next two days...when I go back to SG againnn..It's Convocation!you know?We'll have so much fun by going back to our universityy....

But one thing that I'm so curious..The thing that I'll definitely find out during convocation...and the answer will be revealed at that time...If it really was a lie...I'll feel that I'm the most idiot person on earth...being lied by someone for so longgg....and it was definitely a very long lie-story...I'm still hoping it wasn't a lie...I'm still hoping for the best...

Plannn..Plannn..Plannnn...

2010-03-29T06:28:00.000-07:00

What to do in SG? I've planned it with Vin...hahaaa...

First day....
Gonna arrive in Sg around 11 and reached "home" around 12 or more..then I'll have my lunch with Vin at either Al Ameen or Boon Tong Kee or whatever delicious there..hohoooohhh....After lunch, I'll go to Serangon Broadway with " The Girls" to take our graduation gown and trencher...We have make appointment at three...We'll back home after taking the gown and back to Orchard for SHOPPINGGG!!!I'm soooo looking forward to shop , shop and shopp till dropp!!hahaaa...
After all those shopping things, We'll back home again..for shower, make up and we'll dressed ourselves like crazy as we'll go out for a drink that nightttt at Clark Quayyy!!!Expect to get home at 2 or 3...

Second Day....
Meet up with Vin around 10 or 10.30...We'll head to Vivocity..arrive there around 11 or more...We'll have our lunch at "Carnivore"...some kind of " all-you-can-eat thing"....From Carnivore, we go to casinoooo!!!yeapppp...I've been so curious about casinooo!!!and its time to gooo..hahaaa....We'll move to Orchard in the eveninggg..we'll have our dinner and have planned to watch a midnite moviee...a HK moviee....From movies, we'll have our supper at teo chew porridge near our house!cool, huh? bet I'll definitely lose all my energy when I back Medan..LOL..

Last Day....
Plan to wake up early...Meet up with Vin and go to Bugis temple and shopp again there...I'll buy lots of dresses and Bags thereeee...hehehhhh...I'll definitely eat all things that I wanttt..Afterwards,I'll back home and get ready to the airport at 4...early right?cause we planned to shop in the airport...the perfume and cosmetics are far more cheaper in the airport...

Arrive in Medan and get ready if my mom get angry with lots of the things I buy!!hahahaaa...

Happy Holidayyy...Hope these things goes on smoothlyyy and this perfect holiday remains as what I expected!

Taken For Granted?

2010-03-29T06:09:00.000-07:00

What'll you do when you come to realised that you have been taken for granted by your own friend?That's how I felt few days agoo...and it DID pissed me offf!!!

After all the text I sent with no reply....
I realised that she has been so busy with her "new friends" back then..
It's OK for me..
Then she finally text me when her "new friends" are busy...
Dunno what to doo...
She told me that she got so much things to told me..
then I ask her out for a drink as we haven't gathered for weeks..
But I've never imagine what I got...It's the same againnnn...No reply....S***!!!
WHO DO YOU THINK I AM??
Never take me for granted, my dear friend....
You never know how it feels like if you were me....

Twice....!!Yesss...!!!

2010-03-19T05:50:00.000-07:00

I'm going SG twice next month since I have to picked up my graduation gown and trencher this 2nd April..I'm damn happy when I realised that I got more time in Sg...I'm going on 2nd and going back on 4th..Got 2 days to spend there since I only go to pick the gown..

Jil called me two days ago...to confirmed my visits this upcoming 2nd April...and she asked me "wanna go out for a drink at clark quay?"
Of course I say Yes!
It is something we always wanna do when we were still in university...and now we'll really go there...for a drink,beer or something..I'm so looking forward to those days I'll spend in SG!

I've planned to meet up with Vin on the second day...in which will be 3rd Aprill..and we'll spend a day together like how we used to be when I was in university...I miss it soo...
We used to meet up at Orchard 11pm..Enjoying the "Paris Buffet" till 3pm..Continue to movies,Chatting at Starbucks, find something to eat for dinner and again..continue gossiping till late at Esplanade till we missed the bus and train...hahaaa!!Missed that time so much!

I'm gonna find back my freedom...flashbacks all happy memories that ever happened in my life over there...I miss it...and I'm gonna treasure every moments I spend in SG!
I'm so ready for HOLIDAYYY!!!

Convooo... Convoooo...!!!

2010-02-27T08:13:00.000-08:00

Convocation Confirmed!It's on 15th April 2010!!!
I'm soooooooo looking forward to it...Where I could back to sg...flashback all good things that ever happened in my life...Lol...Plan to go on 14th and will back to reality on Sunday 18th!
and here's the list of what I should do there...:
1. Eat...Eat...Eat....!!! ( It's a MUST Thingy....!) Fish n Co, Din Dai Fung, Imperial, Paris, HK Cafe, Cafe d' Cartel, Modesto, Ichiban Sushi, Burger King, Mos Burger, Chic Cutlet till SIM's Food Courts "Ban Mian " and Megabites ! Fiuhhh...got such a very long list of what I should eat in SG!Till I'm so afraid that I dint have enuf time to eat all things there!
2. Drink...Drink..Drink..!!! I'm so missing the Milk Tea from " Sweet Talk "..Couldn't find any milk tea that taste better than that...also White Chocolate Dream from Coffee Bean, and some hot lattes from Gloria Jeans...!!
3. Shop...Shop..Shop!!! ( Far East, Takashimaya, Bugis, Cityhall, Marina Square, Ion, and sooo onnn)... I'm dying for the thing called shopping since I dint get anything I want here...( Can you imagine how I couldn't find an " Eye Make Up Remover " in SOGO...all unavailable...and I'm feeling like yelling at that time!I'm so pissed off!!!) I'm gonna buy some Bobby Brown n MAC Cosmetics , Charles n Keith and Mphosis Shoes, Dressess, and sooo onnn....
4. Friends....! It's gonna be a big reunion when we're back to University...It's Convocation! gonna be a happy and sad things for us..Since We got such a small chance to meet other friends from other country...
5. Movies! (This maybe a bit irrational...But I really miss Cineplex "PopCorn"...LOL...)
6. Sentosa Island....! I've been watching some advertisement about how the Casino has opened for tourist and also the Universal Studios! I'm so curious about it!
7. Pictures! I'm gonna take so many pictures in Sg!since this is like the last time I'll go there in an identity of a Sg Student!hehee...

I'm gonna share everything here where I'm back to reality!So curious and dying for it!

Once Again...

2010-02-22T05:36:00.000-08:00

My cousin's going to further her make up studies in Sg this upcoming May!
I wanna go with her!hahaaa...But its impossible...
I'm now still in contract with my working company...and it ends this September...
I'm still wondering what to do then..continue working in the same company or look for another job...
Actually I want to do another job...really need some creativity in jobs..and not doing those monoton things every day!
There's a part of me that wants go back Sg...
Enjoying every seconds of my happiness and freedom there..
I'm missing it...
Missing every moments I spent there for the past 3 years...
I wanna feel it once again...If I could..

.....

2010-02-08T06:36:00.000-08:00

We were having our Lunch Break these afternoon...
Enjoying my lunch with some female collages..
Listening to those jokes and gossips about boys around..and about themselves as well..
I realized that they always have someone who they can share everything with...
Their old friends from high school...no matter how their friends are married or in a relationship with a guy out there...
I'm feeling so lonely every time I saw them calling their friends when they have nothing to do...
Or the other way round...
I'm so jealous..really..
The thing I found here....Since September,When my best friends back to university..
is only..Loneliness...and Emptiness...

Moody...

2010-02-06T05:53:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling so depressed to spend my sat nite at home...
I dint feel right...
dunno what to do...waste of time...
It feels good when I went out with friends like what I always did..
But too bad they're having some problems today..
Huhhh....
All unhappiness things come across my mind...
Maybe I'm the one who's been so sensitive these days..
I dunno...
I'm feeling like I'm going crazy soon...really soon...

Its been so different with what happened yesterday..
I went out with friends..
Watching "The spy next door"..in which has been really out-to-date...
We watched the 9pm one..
Out from theater at 11 and continue to MW till 12am+...
I enjoyed it so...
Cause it's rare for us to reunite like that..
Continue to my cousins house and we chatted till morning..
Got not enough sleep..
But I'm so damn happy...

It's really funny how my mood changed so quickly..
Wish I could back to the one I should be...
With no-more depressed things on my mind...
I'm tired of it...

Irrational...

2010-02-06T05:43:00.000-08:00

Is It so hard for you just to inform us about that sudden information?
I DON'T GET IT!!!

习惯就好...

2010-01-24T06:50:00.000-08:00

Everything does change..
There's something weird between us..
But I don't even know what was that..
I can just pretend everything's fine...
Like there's nothing really matter between us...
Though deep inside my heart..
I'm still not used to it...
There's nothing called fun times when we're together..
Feels so empty..
Somethings missing..
But I believe that as long as I try to get used to it..
Everything'll be fine..
习惯就好...

Fahrenheit Christmas Concert 2009...

2009-12-28T04:34:00.000-08:00

We went to Fahrenheit Concert with Special Price!!!
Thanks to Winson for thisss...

I've been so curios about the concert from the first time I saw their advertisement on newspaper...I wanna go...but the ticket prices are so high..and that's why I always think that it's such a dream for me to join the concert...

But here it is...
A few days back,I got a phone call from Vent..saying that a friend of her offered her the tickets for two...plus a room voucher..with such a special price..its because that a fans from Bandung couldn't make her way to Medan..I'm so happy with it..and within minutes, We accepted the offer..hahaaa..

Its just a few days to the concert..Its 21st December when we accepted the offer while the concert was on 25th December..Its on Christmas...I found myself so hard to get asleep after accepting the offer..cause I'm so happy...I'm tooo happy for it...Seeing them Face to face was like a dream come true for me..

There comes the day...25th December 2009..
We arrived at Brastagi at almost 1pm...We did joined the meet and greet session...and each of us got 2 CDs...two from that fans and we bought two more for ourselves...It was such a strict concert as we are not allowed to take cameras during the meet n greet sessions and the concert...They found out mine and they took it..Then I just took some pictures using mobile phone..
I found myself breathless and speechless the time they showed up...They are soooo SHUAIIII!!!really...I feels like crying...cause I'm so damn happy..hahaaa...
I wrote X'mas cards for them...and I gave them during the meet and greet..and I did talked to them..I still remember that Jiro was the most gentle guy out of four..the way he hold my hands makes me feels like a princess..and his damn good eyes...I'm completely melting...I said Merry Christmas to each of them..WuZhun also damn shuaiii...I couldn't believe there's a guy out there,having that perfect combination on his face...Calvin was so friendly when he said thanks for the Xmas cards..and I found out that Aaron was so quiet..just say thanks and smile..I did read a news saying that he's currently having an ear infections...hope he's doing well..poor him..

At 5pm...
The concert starts...as I have mentioned before..there're no cameras allowed..But I'm so lucky that they didn't recognized my camera...and here it is...there're only me and a girl standing in front using cameras..while others only use their mobile phone for pictures..haha..LUCKY MEEE!!!

Their songs "出神入化" came up..with their MV...but none of them coming up to the stage..as the MV flows and their voice from the MV slowly out,suddenly Aaron came up to stage...and everyone screaming like crazy...But we finally know that we're misuderstood...He came up..with his arrogant face..staring at the upper side of the audience and said..."Please..!!Be Professional while working!!"...OMG....all of us shocked...so shocked of how he is so brave to scold the one who are responsible for the sound system..after that he went back stage and the songs slowly started again...Then four of them came up..we are so HIGH during the concert..but a bit disappointed with what Aaron did at the beginning...I thought that it is not appropriate for a star to do that in front of his fans..doesn't he ever think of how his fans feels after he did that kind of thing?
Fahrenheit did sang lots of songs..all of their songs are so high...and I love their songs sooo muchhh..I did take lots of photographs and videos..there's times where Jiro prank his fans like he's going to fall downstage...as he did that,he realise that he's really gonna fall down..hahaaa..He's so lucky that his fans help him and his manager also ran to the stage to help him...he's so cute..LOL...There're only Calvin and Jiro who talked so much during the concert..They are damn funny...Wuzhun was a bit quite...
They played games with fans..I did raised my hands but unluckily I didn't get pointed...Calvin said that if he lost to Wuzhun, he'll stay in Indonesia and joined Indonesia entertainment industry..and he really lost to Wuzhun..LOL..Jiro scream..."辰亦儒....留下来!留下来!留下来!"...lol...he's damn funny...at the end, They really sang "留下来"...and suddenly Arron sat down at the side of the stage..it's actually in front of me..hahaaaa...The others followed him as well..Before the concert ends,Calvin said to the audience.."Please wait for me..I'll make my way through Indonesia's entertainment industry!"LOL....He's super funny..!!
The concert ends,we wait them outside the theater..waiting for them to changes their clothes and make their way back to their rooms..They finally came up and when they are in their rooms,Aaron walked to the balcony and say "hi" to us..while Jiro took his camera and also walked to the balcony..took photos of us...his fans...who are waiting downstairs...I saw him smiling!

We got back to our rooms when suddenly Vent mobile phone rang..its from Winson..saying that there're two more sits available...For the gala dinner with Fahrenheit..!!OMG...We then went to the gala dinner..but no cameras allowed..we could only see them...huhuuu..but its already so lucky for us..

The next morning, We woke up at 4am...as we already know that there're off at 6...we wait for them beside the pool...They out at 6.30...and I'm so speechless when I saw JIRO...He's so stylish..He is the most stylish out of four...Aaron and WuZhun are the most simple one....We only say bye-bye to themm...

Its so worth it for us to watched the concert...I'm so happy..damn happy...I'm so melting because of Jiro..dunno why...I really could fall in love with a guy like him..who are so humorous,friendly and nice..though I love Wuzhun at first,but after watching the concertzI completely fall in love with Jiro..Lol...Maybe I've going crazy after the concertttt..hahahaaaa

HAPPY...There're too much happiness in my life after watching their concert..an unreal happiness actually...I'm so afraid that this kind of happiness will end soon..

End Of 2009...

2009-12-19T08:40:00.000-08:00

Its December...I couldn't believe how this year passed so fast...I've "survived" in Medan for half year!and I've been working for almost 4 months!Omgggg...Its just like yesterday when I had my last paper....

I've had my reunion with friends since yesterday...18th of December..when almost all of us gathered...sur,vent,lice,win,pp,hen n me...Its quite fun...we went to eat,sing and movie....It's been a while since the last time I saw them...

But the worst thing is...My best friends gathered in Sg...both adut n apui..haizzz..really want to join them....But its impossible!adut come back this tuesday and there'll be a reunion for us too...I'm so happy with that..but too bad...apui couldn't join us since he's not going back this christmas..

Another good news...an old friend of mine...contact me from facebook..saying that she's going back this christmas with her boyfriend..and she asked me out!It's been two years since we last met..

Much good news this end of 2009..I'm starting to feel that I've slowly find back my pieces of happiness...Hope its true...

The Twilight Saga = New Moon...

2009-11-28T09:01:00.000-08:00

I just watched "New Moon" this evening...and here's my opinion...

Its such a pity of Bella...Being loved by a vampire and a werewolves..LOL..None of them is the real human...None of them can give her the normal love and relationship...
But there's one thing for sure..I'm so impressed of how deep Bella and Edward love each other..(Even its such a movie...But its totally romantic!).
"I couldn't live in a world without you, Bella"....That's what Edward says and I bet there're tons of girls out there....melting when hearing this sentence!Lol...

New Moon...Not much better than Twilight...There's a person out there says..."Twilight = Two Thumbs Up...While New Moon = Two Thumbs Down.." I'm quite agree of it...New Moon is such like a drama..no much action scenes...!Quite Boring during the show...

Change Me...

2009-11-18T04:12:00.000-08:00

They say I've changed..Changed to a person they didn't recognised...
Yes..They're right..Then what?
I'm too sicked of being myself...
Someone who've ever think that she'll be dead if she lose her friends..
That everything in life is just about friends,friends and friends...
But now,I've come to realised that there's no such things..
I'm too stupid to keep on thinking like that before..too stupid..
Where're you when I see those people sitting with their friends?I'm alone!
In between these times...I've realised what friendship means..
Someone who will tell you to move on instead of asking you what happened...
Someone who will not keep on asking you to tell them your problems but ask you to go out just to make you feel better...
Someone who you'll share everything and won't feel stupid about things that you shared..
Yeap...That's what I need..But seems like everything's too late, huh?
I'm happy with the friends I have now...The Boys who'll ask me to go out every sat nite..
Some best friends overseas that I'll share things with almost everytime we chatted..Who'll always asked me to be tough and make me laugh when I feel sad...
And also..the one who know how I feel...The one who knows it better than anyoneelse..

After all these things that I've been through..I realised that I'm sicked of "them"!Like how they sicked of me bcause I always keep on commenting about my life here...and that makes me changed until I found these new Friendship now..
They'll never know how I feel..and some of them scolded me once..and it hurts me..really...someone who never know what I mean and how I feel can just scolded me like they know everything about me..what the hell is that?

No offense if you feel you are the one I'm talking about...But that's what I feel right now..
Those friendship that we've made...I'm sure it'll be fixed..but I doubt it'll be the same...

Weekend...

2009-11-14T10:34:00.000-08:00

Weekend activities...Going out with Sher...
We went to Sushitei to have some sushi there...after that went to Starbucks...
We chatted till 4.30pm..then we went to the 4th floor..and she finally buy the BBT album!The one that comes with Poster and the POKER!!!omg...I want it sooo...The POKER should be awesome!lol...
We're having such a fun talks...and finally comes a surprised news from her..She told me that she met my friends the day before..actually the girls...she looked around and found out I'm not with themm..Yeappp..I'm not with them..and I dun have any idea that they're hanging out that day..
We hang out till 5pm..and back home at 6.30...
I'm having dinner with my mom then suddenly come a message from John..asked me to go out..Of course I'm in!We went out...the three of us..we eat and chat @ Cambrigde...till late...chatting bout our past..about everything...I'm so happy to have such brothers like them around..cause its so fun!Finally arrived home almost twelve.

Lonely Lonely Life...

2009-11-12T06:33:00.000-08:00

Actually I'm having a dinner tonight with John,Jef and Luvi..But don't know why..They suddenly cancel it...huhhhh...I'm so happy two days ago when I received the invitation..but it was cancelled...Fiuhhh...another lonely lonely night...I'm looking forward for weekends..love it soo...hangin out with Sher and Nest..Share our Life story in here..haizzz...I did miss the time We chatted at Starbucks..for hours..till late...but it could only happened in SG!sharing our feelings together can let me forget all my sadness even for just a while..and they are really the one that I could tell what's wrong with me..cause they can also feel it...This sickness..
New Activity on Sunday...Go swimming with Lice...
after that we look for delicious food...hahaa...that's fun..

But that only happens on Weekends...
I still remember last week..Sitting alone at Starbucks..waiting for my mom...(I used to go window shopping every friday after office hours then mom pick me up)
Then I sit alone there..enjoying my favourite "Toffee Nut Frappuccino" that only available on Christmas..
I looked around...Some of them looked at me with weird eyes..maybe they think "what happenned with this girl?sitting alone at Starbucks alone this Friday nite?"..HELLO!!!ITS FRIDAY NIGHT!!!
I'm feeling so bad at that time...and something just make it worst...I saw a bunch of people sitting on the corner...a bunch of them...laughing out loud..joking with each other..Looking so happy that they couldn't stop their laughter..Then I remember those happy times I'm with my friends..just like them..laughing out loud at anywhere..I couldn't help smiling..But after that ..I looked at myself and another chair in front of me..no one is there..What's left is only..Loneliness..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...

2009-11-04T06:11:00.000-08:00

Its been a month since the last time I updated this Blog...hmm...Maybe I should just start with my birthday celebration with my dear friends..Those gals...they didn't say anything about "happy birthday" to me..not any of them!I know there'll be a "surprised" actually..Its just so obvious.hahaaa...Then..There it is...we meet up at a K2 after office and all of them celebrate my birthday there...I'm quite happy with it..Though I'm still feeling not to well with my life..

A week later...My family did a birthday celebration for me and my sisters in an orphanage..I've been there before..celebrating my cousin's birthday there...Its quite like a tradition in my family since some years agoo..celebrating birthday in an orphanage has its own happiness for us..really..I'm so busy with the celebration itself..buying some presents for the orphans , meals , cakes and so on...and here comes the day..25th October 2009...We all arrived there earlier to prepare everything...The celebration itself was quite good...There are some moments where I'm almost couldn't hold back my tears..so pity of those childrens..such innocent childrens..There are so many unfair things in life happenned to them before it comes to the time they understand
what life is..omggg...I feel so touched...seeing them singing birthday song for me...and their prayers to God...
What makes me happy is when some of those childrens playing "Happy Birthday" song by using "Angklung"..OMG..Its so awesome!I wanna hear it again someday..

T---T

2009-10-11T01:11:00.000-07:00

为什么我一直觉得好难过?
我只是想要快乐一点..
有那么难吗?
真的不想要这样..
这样的心情真的很痛苦...很不自在..
可以回到以前的我吗?
什么都不在乎的我..
没什么大不了的我..
习惯一个人的我..
现在陪伴我的只剩下孤单和寂寞....
突然觉得很不习惯...

Wants to end it all..

2009-10-10T07:55:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been so lonely that nothing seems to make sense?
Well..That's how I feel right now..
I feel like I'm facing everything with nothing but tears and a fake smile..

Dunno why I've been so melancholy these days..with no reasons..
I really wants to cry..but why these tears don't fall?
Wanna watch some touching movies that could make me Cry..
Or find some place where I could Scream Out Loud...
Just to throw away all unhappiness in my heart...
I know for sure that cry or scream couldn't make things any better..
I really need some refreshment..
That could help me find back my soul..
How am I supposed to live this life?
Wish I'm not going to be crazy soon..

Loneliness killin' me softly..

2009-10-05T05:41:00.000-07:00

I'm sickkk...so sickkk..
When this all will end?
Although I have been really used to this lonely life..
But I couldn't stand this silence..
I'm missin the time we laughed out loud..
Those craziness and noisiness we shared..
But there's nothing I could do..
What others say is true..
We're lot more happier when we were a teenage girl..
No burden..Just having fun and fool around..
Its so impossible to turned back time..
Though I wished for it so much..

Unreal Life

2009-10-03T09:53:00.000-07:00

It's almost a month since I started working..
New Friends..New Life..New Society..
Everything just fine...
But Why Everything seems so unreal to me?
Feels that its just a dream..and I'll get back to a real life soon..
But what kind of real life that I want?
I don't know...
I'm still hoping for the best thing to happen..

Friends or Loved Ones?

2009-10-03T09:25:00.000-07:00

If there's only one you could choose..
Which one will it be?

Such a tough question...
A Friend of Mine told me that there's no answer to it..
The only perfect answer is to choose both of them..
Can you really spare your time between your friends and loved ones?
NO..!!
It's just a perfect answer..but in reality...
It's what so-called DILEMMA..
Time is all taken by your loved ones..
and you'll forget the time you should spend with your friends..

Loved Ones don't like your friends..
Jealous of how close you are with your opposite friends..
Always that kind of problem..
Maybe I'm wrong...
Or It's just me who dun understand how they feel..
I don't know..
Just let it be how it should be..
I'm too tired to decide the best solution for this problem...

Laughh..

2009-09-24T04:23:00.000-07:00

It's so weird that my mood changes suddenly todayyy..
Being a bit unhappy for few days..
And this is the first day I laugh so hard!
Picked up a call from a friend...
And from that moment..
I couldn't help but laughing like crazy..
Until now...I keep on smiling every time I remember the news!LOL..

What is the news actually?
How funny is it ?
It is actually a good news..and a happy news as well..
It's about a friend of mine..
and I think a New Relationship is waiting for her..hahaaa...

Life in Singapore...Life in Medan...

2009-09-23T00:26:00.000-07:00

Suddenly miss my life in Sg so much...
Maybe I should say..I've always miss my life in Sg!!
Miss the Food!Shops!Movies!Life!
The only place where I could do everything alone...
Maybe it sounds so funny...
Yeshh! I also can do everything here..
But I don't feel right being here..
Find out that there's something missing..
"My Freedom"...

In Sg...
Its just okay if I'm going anywhere alone..
But what the hell with people here staring at me when I'm going out alone..
Is it Weird?NO!!It's just that they are not used to be going everywhere alone!
And that bothered me so..
I never feel lonely when I dun have any single friend in Sg...is it sound unrealistic?
I find it so unrealistic!But that's the truth..
Till now..
I'm always wondering if I'm making such a bad decision of going back here..

My friends...
Some change..just like how life changes from time to time..
There's no such things called "High School Times"..
Friendship change when Relationship change...
I feel bored..I feel lonely..
When I'm facing the reality that friends I trusted most are separated from me..
Maybe they are right..Life must goes on..
We are living for the future..not for the past..

Life in Medan...
Just like how I should settle down in other country..
Sounds funny , huh?
Like what I previously said..
I don't feel right being here..
My hometown but its residence don't get the warmth of her own hometown..

And that's the only reasons I made this blog..
When I don't have anybody to talk to..
When there's only me..in my Loneliness..

" PerFect Holiday" 04th Sept ~ 06th Sept 2009

2009-09-22T08:28:00.000-07:00

One day Left..

2009-09-22T08:04:00.000-07:00

It's just one day left before I start working again...
Ughhhh...
Seems like most people resume working on Monday..
That's the consequences of working on Banking Industries!
But the good thing is that I've two days to rest every week while the rest of them still working on Saturday!LOL...

After I started working..
I finally understand how those who work tend to appreciate holiday more..
Ughhh..I need more holidayyy!!

"Ingatlah Hari Ini"

2009-09-21T20:02:00.000-07:00

"Ingatlah Hari Ini"

Together we gathered..
To sing this song..
Song about us..
Song that is full of Memories and Meanings..
We loved it when we first listen to it ages ago...
Cause this song represent our friendship..
No matter how far we are separated by places and hours..
We'll always remember how our friendship supposed to be..
Some may change...But...
Our jokes..Laughter..unhappiness..and problems that we shared together..
Will always remain in our hearts..
Forever..and Ever...

Welcoming New Life...

2009-09-21T09:27:00.000-07:00

Ughhh....It's just 2 days before Mr.V leave for Singapore...
Just text him and he said there's no more time for him to hang out anymore..
and the reason is...He got so many things to buy!GOSH..!!
Its just Singapore Cousin!You can get what you want there!!hahaaaa...

We have spent our Uni Life together in Singapore..
Watch movies....Tasting new Cafes...and Starbucks till mid nite..
We got so many things to chat remember?
and I think we'll need a three-nites time (or more) to chat on this upcoming CNY..When you come back..LOL...

I couldn't imagine how my life would be after this...
I still remember how messy my life was when I back here...
I keep on thinking that Indo's life sucks!
And I'm not used to it..
Its just not flexible for me to go anywhere..
And of course how my Family always keep on saying everything about "Getting a job".
I still need more time to relax..
To clear my mind and get used to my life here..
Problems just comin' over and over..
Till I feel I've had Enough!

It's just that I have my friends that makes me feel relieved..
They help me to find back my Laughter and Life here..
I Finally got a job here and began working the day after..
It's been two weeks..

I do believe that everything always comes with a price..
When I have got a job...and my life's getting better..
It comes to the time when I must say goodbye to my great friends(and cousin)..
You always ask me..
"Do you feel blessed for havin' me as your cousin?"
I always replied that "I'm not"...(You know I'm just joking..lolxx..)
I'm surely happy for having you as a Cousin and also a Great friend of mine..

So...New Life....How will it be?

Two Best Guy of a Mademoiselle...

2009-09-19T10:53:00.000-07:00

For Two Best Guy Of Mine....

How have you been?
We have been separated for just a week..
But I have already miss you so much...
It's really unbelievable that we could be that close to each other..
And to be a "TRUE FRIENDS"..

Do you still remember..
That we are used to be Four Person...
and we named it "Friends of Fourth" ?
Yes...It has been years...
Until a year ago...
It becomes three of us...(What should we named it then?)

We spent a Perfect Holiday together..
We almost hang out Everyday...
No matter where we go...
As long as it is with two of you..
I'll be so HAPPY...
HAPPY with those jokes and our Time together...

And until the time we should be separated again..
One in Seattle...One in Singapore..and Another me in Our Hometown..
I feel Sad...
Do you still remember the last time we chat in Mr.V's Car?
We almost cried...With our Favorite song playing...
Cause we still feel not enough..
We still need more time to spend together...
But what Mr.H said is true..
Even if we have half year to spend...We still feel not Enough..

We always say that LIFE must goes on..
Yeap...
We are facing the truth that we'll not have time together anymore..
But the word "FRIENDSHIP" still remains deep in our hearts..
Just awaits for our another holiday that we could spend together...
Even in Years time..

For Two Best Guy of Mine....

I'll always miss the time we are together...Cause I Love it when we are together!

Life of a Mademoiselle...

2009-09-19T10:24:00.000-07:00

Should LIFE be Sad or Happy?

There's only one answer to it "HAPPY"...
But..
Are you Happy with your life?
Do you appreciate all those things that you have?
Some may say "YES"... But Some say "NO"
Do you ever think that there're thousands of people out there...
that are unluckier than you?
I'm so sure that when we are facing that reality..
We'll Thanks God for all he has given to us..
But what will happen the day after?
It's just like Wind..

I'm always wondering what kind of LIFE that suits me best...
I myself wants a happy life..a happily ever after LIFE...
But LIFE will never be that easy...
We must work hard for the word "HAPPINESS"...
Things sometimes do not work on the way we want..
And There're always Tons of Problems comin' over..
I'm stressed..! I'm depressed!

LIFE....
Nothing Perfect about The word "LIFE"
LIFE sometimes makes me Sick!
But On the other hand makes me Happy!
Happy to be born and had the chance to be a person..

Diary of A Mademoiselle..

Quotes..Quotessss...

~ "Dear brain, sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him. Dear tummy, sorry for all the butterflies. Dear pillow, sorry for all the tears. Dear heart, sorry for all the damage. Dear me, sorry for being head-over-heels in love with him ♥"

Game

*Hearts*

Im feeling.... *peace*

Singapore AGAINN ????

Bye Jobs !

*SIGH*

With You Until The End

Bleeding

只看见你(I Can See Nothing But You)

Crystal Clear

李玖哲 Nicky Lee 不愛了 mv 完整版

single!!!

LIE

Stupidity !

迷路

Friend - Life At Last

2011 with pain...

Happy New Year Everyone !

Walll...

Xmas...

rich guys poor hearts

Back

Goodbye!

Blank

another misunderstanding

Letter

=(

Giving without receiving

Married?

between real and unreal..

My best buddies, Make it last forever..!!

Holiday, Pals!

SG..Again..

Thanks for the courage and strength you gave me..

Love it when you are around...

Day with "The Best of The Best"

Idol dramas?Watch This!

Lonely Saturday...

Speechless...

I wish you leave me...

Nuts...

Insanity...

Trippp..Trippp..Holidayy..Holidayyy...

Days to Another Holiday...

Plannn..Plannn..Plannnn...

Taken For Granted?

Twice....!!Yesss...!!!

Convooo... Convoooo...!!!

Once Again...

.....

Moody...

Irrational...

习惯就好...

Fahrenheit Christmas Concert 2009...

End Of 2009...

The Twilight Saga = New Moon...

Change Me...

Weekend...

Lonely Lonely Life...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...

T---T

Wants to end it all..

Loneliness killin' me softly..

Unreal Life

Friends or Loved Ones?

Laughh..

Life in Singapore...Life in Medan...

" PerFect Holiday" 04th Sept ~ 06th Sept 2009

One day Left..

"Ingatlah Hari Ini"

Welcoming New Life...

Two Best Guy of a Mademoiselle...

Life of a Mademoiselle...

Hearts

Im feeling.... peace

SIGH