Bye Jobs !

I handed my resignation letter few days ago (finally).. My boss kinda shock receiving my resignation letter. I know its quite sudden.. and i hope to quit by the end of july. Know why so sudden?

I keep on thinking about resignation since a month ago. before the promotion thing. Do I really heart my job? Is it what i'd like to do everyday in my life? with that amounts of salary every months? Am I really feel happy with what i do now? and after such a long thoughts that stressed me out, I came to an answer. I dint love my job at all. I dont wanna do this everyday of my life with that amounts of salary every months in my account. Im bored. truly bored and Im sicked of this job! Then the decisions come after i know what I should have been done earlier. The reality that Ive been hiding from all the time. Its time to face it!

I know its kinda weird for all peoples out there. "Do you really wanna quit? when your career just begin to rise? Its a promotion babe! please think about it again !" its a statement that everybody said to me knowing about my resignation. I know its too sudden. I really think to resign by last tuesday. I feel like Im going to be crazy soon. for being so stressed over which path should i take in my life. and finally I made a decision after I talked to Mom. asking whether she's fine if I quit and help her with her business. and her reaction was just like what I predicted. she's so happy with my decision. cause in the end, who'll handle her business if its not me? I do think that its better to start now. when mom still can help me from the start. I couldnt imagine if someday I should learn this business in an express way. I really cant do it for sure. thats why i think of resign, and start helping my mom.

On thursday, I handed my resignation letter to my boss in credit department. and I personally talked to my HR Manager about my resignation and it has been approved. but still not sure whether I can quit by the end of July.

Ive never feel so peace like this for such a long time. I know Im making a right decision as i saw happy faces of my family. This is not an easy decision at all. I should learned from the start in which will take such a long time. and thats why I prefer this time in life to start learning this business. Its time to grow up and accept the reality that i should face sooner or later..

Regarding my job now, huhhh..there's so many things that i need to teach my partner and the newbie soon..I hope they dint give me a newbie as its so hard for them to learn things in a month's time. and my other colleagues, I feel kinda sad leaving this bank because of them. we shared quite lots of things together and they're such a very fun colleagues. and they kinda sad hearing about me quitting soon.. Im going to miss u all :(

Last but not least, Wish me luck and success in the future. going to learned from the start..and i wish to reach the top :)

*SIGH*

Feel depressed about your work? That kind of burden you feel every morning of your life instead of feeling happy about going to work? That's what i feel. Owhhh... Jobs really sucks !

I got promotion last month and my promotion to Marketing Officer will starts by this July. Am I feel happy about it? Firstly,Yes. But now? No!

Firstly i feel happy. happy with the fact that what I've done, my contributions to this Bank has been seen by my bosses and what i get in return? A Promotion !
But promotions means more works to be done. more pressures to handle. Do I have enough strength to endure it? I guess not. As I myself already have lots of things that stressed me out. I dont think i can handle another pressures in my life. I dont have that confidence. Am I stupid? Yes I indeed so stupid for feeling so bad about this promotion. Promotions on the other hand means a way to a better career. better future..

But what can I do if I dont have that confidence at all? Im sick of this job. wanna look for another job that I'll love. and I'll feel happy every morning of my life with my lovely jobs awaits me. But what kind of jobs that I'll love? I dont get any idea at all. All I want now is a break. be away from this job. resign maybe? and start looking for jobs after I rest enough..Yeahh... that was just a dream. the reality is,by tomorrow I still have to wake up in the morning, feel so burdened, go to work and face the reality....*SIGH*