I wish you leave me...

I'm feeling bad today...Last day at office this week...I should be smiling right?
NOPE!! I was told to work OT by tomorrow...to help those marketing thingy..Shittt!!
I'm so pissed off!!!I'm not happy with it..although I'll get high pay for OT, I still prefer to enjoy my weekend..releasing all stressing things I have...
I back home and only to find out my aunties were having their dinner...I joined them (Unwillingly).
I asked whether I got a car to drive tomorrow...Her answer was just too harsh..she said why should she be so troubled whether I got a car or not..Goshhh!!!I hate it soo..I told her I had to OT and if I dint get a car to drive, I wont go to office...Then after they heard what I said..They start badmouthing...saying I should go to office whether I dint get a car to drive.Should be at 7am tomorrow ( Work start on 9am+ actually)...I feel so irritated...Those depressing things I used to have, come again..I dun like how they take control of my life...It's My LIFE!!! I controlled my own life! Not them! Yet they really like to messed with me..saying what I should done and everything just should go as what they think and said..It's OK if I asked for an advice...But they dint care I ask it or not...they just bla..bla..bla....and I should do what they said! Sorry..I'm not a princess!!and I'm sicked of it!!
I went upstairs only to find out how my sister was so lazy....We did quarreled as I dint like how she likes to shout at me! Heyyy..!!I'm the eldest and She SHOULD Respect me!!! Godddd...
I went to bathroom and did cry for 5 minutes..Idk...I'm so stressed today...I feels like wanna run away from home..Where I could have my own life...do what I want and like...and of course without anyone messed with my life..I dint have any freedom here..I'm sick...and I dunno how long it would last...

Nuts...

They say..."Everybody deserve the best partner for their lives "....Is it True? I just realised that I never deserve the best for the word " Boy "...All comes were just not fit the qualifications..lol...
What's the qualifications then? Idk as well...It did change..just like season change..really..I myself also dunno what kind of qualifications fit me best...and that's the only reasons I still enjoy my single life..Not like some of my friends who choose to be in a relationship with someone out there...Or even got married in their early age..

I knew I'm not a Princess..who could pick any guy out there...But yess.."I'm that picky"...Its not easy for me to find my other half.I'm not like most people..who could just get into a relationship when they feel that the feels were just right..I'm not...I should be responsible to myself..I'm looking for a long relationship..that's why It's too difficult.really...My family's qualifications was too high as well..till I've ever think of letting them choose a guy for me..that suits them..and suits the qualifications..hahaa..I dunno whether I got the ability to choose my other half later in life..

Maybe some of you face this kind of problem..while some not...Did you laugh when you read this? " maybe "...lol...

What's the best solutions then? I know there will be no solutions...The only thing I could do was only...Hope..and prayyy!!hahaa...so lets...Hope and pray for me..

Even if later I got the worst guy ever, dont laugh at me for being too picky..maybe its just my destiny..But now...still hopeee and prayy..okay?I'll pray for all of you as well...for my friends.and for all who read this..may you get your other half as soon as possible!!

Best Regards...

Insanity...

I knew I'm not the perfect person you're looking for...
From the history you've heard about me...
I knew...I'll never be the one...
Yet, I'm still too afraid...I'm too scared that one day..
I'd really fall for you...

That's called "insanity", huh?
Just by discussing something about you...
We're once afraid..that we'd fall for you...
Is it real?
Maybe I should just stop this insanity..
Before I'd become really insane...and fall for you...

Trippp..Trippp..Holidayy..Holidayyy...

First day....( 14th April 2010 )

Reached SG at 11+...Went to check in at the hotel then went out to shoppp(again)..Lol...shop till late...Then I was back to hotel around nine...carrying my favourite pastamania,chic cutlets,sweet talks,and soooo mannnnyyyy things I bought at Orchard...at the time I started my dinner,Vin called me...We did chatted for such a long timee..gossipping and I told him what has happened currently...we gossipped till an hour plus then suddenly I felt itchiness all over my body...Goshhh!!I felt those itchiness on my neck during afternoon..and its all red..I stopped touching it and it became normal again..But why those itchiness come again?at night?all over my body?Goshhh...I told Vin that I'm gonna take a bath and would call him later...I really wish that after bath, those itchiness would stop...but what happened was...My face became all red when I started to wash off my make upp..OMG...My Convocation is Tomorrowww!!!How can I go with a face like that?after taking bath, I got myself changed and I went to hospital...which was luckily near to my hotel...It's 10.30pm and I went to the emergency room...I saw a doctor...he initially was about to give me an injection with high dose but he was so shocked when he found out that I'm going to hospital alone..without no one accompany me...He then give me an injection which was less drowsy..then I went back to hotel...on my way back, I called Vin and we still chatted till my Mom arrived hotel...We did laughed with the fact that my first day in SG was ended in hospital...LOL...

Second day...( 15th April 2010 )

I'm feeling good that day...Going to SIM at 10 after picked Renny up at Paragon...We waited for our friends in Bsc. Accounting n Finance...Their Convocation was in morning...After their ceremony, We took lots of photographs....It was FUN!!!to have gathering with lots of UNi-Friends...taking lots of photosss....
Then It's the time when I found out everything was a lie..WTF with going to sg on 10th april?All was a LIE! A Big LIE!!!GOshhhhh....I've been fooled for almost a year...GOddd!!
MY grads ceremony was at noon...and it started at 3pm...I got asleep during the ceremony....IT was sooo boringgg!!!!Then it ended at 4pm plus...I met up with Vin and Mike....I did told them to give me that UOL doll...and they really bought that!lol..Vin's said that he firstly think of buying that doll for me but he was afraid that I already got one...The doll was so cute..and I loved it sooo..We did take lots of picturess..all gradution thing ended at 6pm plus and I got back to hotel...We then went to Wisma Atria and had our dinner...

Third dayy...( 16th April 2010 )

My mom got an appointment for check up that day..and we went to hospital...I also saw a doctor which was specialised in cough and respiratory...I got cough for few months already...
After all those check up thingy, we then had our lunch at Din Dai Fung...I love the fried rice so muchhhh....We went to Bugis after lunch and shopped so much things there...

Fourth Day...( 17th April 2010 )

It's Universal Studio's Dayyy....!!!(Another Post)

Fifth Day....(18th April 2010 )

My last day in SG...My mom Bought me an IPhone..for my graduation gift....(Thanks mom!)...We then shopped again..mom bought lots of things...and our luggage were so heavy like hell when we back medan..hahaaaaaa....

It was quite an unique holiday..starting from having an allergy,end up in hospital,convocation,Uss...and those shopping thinggss!!!I'm gonna miss these days I spent in SG!

Days to Another Holiday...

It's been a week since I back here...I've been soooo busy these days till I dint have time to update my blog....
First of all....my holiday....hmmm...all goes like what I expected...and it's an unforgettable holiday! Feels like crazy the first time we go club..hahaaa..but it was fun...and a day with Vin was also sooo funnnn....We went out from 11am to 2am...15 hours..sounds crazy, isnt it?hehehhhh...

I bought lots of things there..and planned to continue my shopping the next two days...when I go back to SG againnn..It's Convocation!you know?We'll have so much fun by going back to our universityy....

But one thing that I'm so curious..The thing that I'll definitely find out during convocation...and the answer will be revealed at that time...If it really was a lie...I'll feel that I'm the most idiot person on earth...being lied by someone for so longgg....and it was definitely a very long lie-story...I'm still hoping it wasn't a lie...I'm still hoping for the best...

Plannn..Plannn..Plannnn...

What to do in SG? I've planned it with Vin...hahaaa...

First day....
Gonna arrive in Sg around 11 and reached "home" around 12 or more..then I'll have my lunch with Vin at either Al Ameen or Boon Tong Kee or whatever delicious there..hohoooohhh....After lunch, I'll go to Serangon Broadway with " The Girls" to take our graduation gown and trencher...We have make appointment at three...We'll back home after taking the gown and back to Orchard for SHOPPINGGG!!!I'm soooo looking forward to shop , shop and shopp till dropp!!hahaaa...
After all those shopping things, We'll back home again..for shower, make up and we'll dressed ourselves like crazy as we'll go out for a drink that nightttt at Clark Quayyy!!!Expect to get home at 2 or 3...

Second Day....
Meet up with Vin around 10 or 10.30...We'll head to Vivocity..arrive there around 11 or more...We'll have our lunch at "Carnivore"...some kind of " all-you-can-eat thing"....From Carnivore, we go to casinoooo!!!yeapppp...I've been so curious about casinooo!!!and its time to gooo..hahaaa....We'll move to Orchard in the eveninggg..we'll have our dinner and have planned to watch a midnite moviee...a HK moviee....From movies, we'll have our supper at teo chew porridge near our house!cool, huh? bet I'll definitely lose all my energy when I back Medan..LOL..

Last Day....
Plan to wake up early...Meet up with Vin and go to Bugis temple and shopp again there...I'll buy lots of dresses and Bags thereeee...hehehhhh...I'll definitely eat all things that I wanttt..Afterwards,I'll back home and get ready to the airport at 4...early right?cause we planned to shop in the airport...the perfume and cosmetics are far more cheaper in the airport...

Arrive in Medan and get ready if my mom get angry with lots of the things I buy!!hahahaaa...

Happy Holidayyy...Hope these things goes on smoothlyyy and this perfect holiday remains as what I expected!

Taken For Granted?

What'll you do when you come to realised that you have been taken for granted by your own friend?That's how I felt few days agoo...and it DID pissed me offf!!!

After all the text I sent with no reply....
I realised that she has been so busy with her "new friends" back then..
It's OK for me..
Then she finally text me when her "new friends" are busy...
Dunno what to doo...
She told me that she got so much things to told me..
then I ask her out for a drink as we haven't gathered for weeks..
But I've never imagine what I got...It's the same againnnn...No reply....S***!!!
WHO DO YOU THINK I AM??
Never take me for granted, my dear friend....
You never know how it feels like if you were me....