Im feeling.... *peace*

Well, after my resignation, everything going better and better. honestly, Ive never been so good for the last half years. Am I taking such a right decision? still dunno as I havent start helping mom with her business. but i guess im taking a right decisions. Im sick with this job. and i just know that lots of my colleagues are going to resign as well. I have never realise there'll be lots and not just one or two. This company really getting worse as they said they're going to improve their system, and plan to double their revenues. but in reality, they really dont have any idea what they are really doing. Luckily i left before any changes happening here. i guess things will not going to be better. they even make it worse.

Im feeling happy. so happy actually. lots of great things happen recently, after my resignation. going to Singapore, another holiday trip during Islamic new year and so on. till Im kinda afraid that it just come in a while and will disappear in a very unexpected way. For the past half years, things have not been good. will things get better for the remaining half years of 2011? Hope this is a good start!

Have been accompanying a friend of mine for the past few days. hope my companion will help. you know it for sure that you can always count on me. no matter it's from the past till now or till the future. I'll be the very best friend for you ;)

Good Luck, my friend. you still have me, have us with you. as long as you believe, you'll get up and move on. Just like me.Ive been keep on praying for my happiness to come. I nearly give up on this life. but now i feel this peace and happiness in my heart. Thanks for all these, God. hope You wouldnt take it from me. Sincerely, Me.

Singapore AGAINN ????

Singapore again on 13th to 17th July ! Happy? Of Course ! Its my short trip and Im going alone ! How can I be not happy about it?

Plan for this trip are all about meeting my best friend and best cousin ever. and also eat, eat and shop, shop, shopsssssssss!!!! Lol... Im soooo excited with this trip. havent been to singapore for the last 7 months, Im so missing my second home country..!!

Meeting my cousins...fiuhhhh....so many things we'll do together. we'll do our favourite culinary trip, watch movies, and chat at either Starbucks, Coffee Bean, or Tcc till late! wahhh..super excited as I havent meet him for quite few months ady and we surely have so many things to share! going to spend the last two nights with him while going to spend my second night with my uni friend. well, actually i dont wanna meet her at all as she was such a very annoying person to me. can u imagine how she always bother me everyday of my life? complaining about her boring life and everything?nothing positive about her at all ! Fiuhhhh.. people say, better stay away from friends who have negative views about everything as that will affect your life as well.and i guess that is right.meeting her is the last thing i wanna do there. ;(

Eat, eat and eat... okay, i know im fat ady. but i really cant stop myself from culinarywhen im in singapore. it's singapore okay? you just can go there once or twice a year! better eat what u wanna eat! I've been so tired dreaming about my favourite foods in sg. and now Im going to eat them all personally! lol.

Shop, shop and shop... This is a must ! Forever 21, Mango, Zara, Mphosis, Cotton on, n bla bla bla.... omgggg.... Im dying for them! gonna shop alone and that's what i love the most as I dont need to wait for anyone and just buy what i like. a save of time ;)

What i gotta do now is counting down the days..It's in a week's time ! I hope time fly faster but getting slower when Im finally at my second home country ;p

Bye Jobs !

I handed my resignation letter few days ago (finally).. My boss kinda shock receiving my resignation letter. I know its quite sudden.. and i hope to quit by the end of july. Know why so sudden?

I keep on thinking about resignation since a month ago. before the promotion thing. Do I really heart my job? Is it what i'd like to do everyday in my life? with that amounts of salary every months? Am I really feel happy with what i do now? and after such a long thoughts that stressed me out, I came to an answer. I dint love my job at all. I dont wanna do this everyday of my life with that amounts of salary every months in my account. Im bored. truly bored and Im sicked of this job! Then the decisions come after i know what I should have been done earlier. The reality that Ive been hiding from all the time. Its time to face it!

I know its kinda weird for all peoples out there. "Do you really wanna quit? when your career just begin to rise? Its a promotion babe! please think about it again !" its a statement that everybody said to me knowing about my resignation. I know its too sudden. I really think to resign by last tuesday. I feel like Im going to be crazy soon. for being so stressed over which path should i take in my life. and finally I made a decision after I talked to Mom. asking whether she's fine if I quit and help her with her business. and her reaction was just like what I predicted. she's so happy with my decision. cause in the end, who'll handle her business if its not me? I do think that its better to start now. when mom still can help me from the start. I couldnt imagine if someday I should learn this business in an express way. I really cant do it for sure. thats why i think of resign, and start helping my mom.

On thursday, I handed my resignation letter to my boss in credit department. and I personally talked to my HR Manager about my resignation and it has been approved. but still not sure whether I can quit by the end of July.

Ive never feel so peace like this for such a long time. I know Im making a right decision as i saw happy faces of my family. This is not an easy decision at all. I should learned from the start in which will take such a long time. and thats why I prefer this time in life to start learning this business. Its time to grow up and accept the reality that i should face sooner or later..

Regarding my job now, huhhh..there's so many things that i need to teach my partner and the newbie soon..I hope they dint give me a newbie as its so hard for them to learn things in a month's time. and my other colleagues, I feel kinda sad leaving this bank because of them. we shared quite lots of things together and they're such a very fun colleagues. and they kinda sad hearing about me quitting soon.. Im going to miss u all :(

Last but not least, Wish me luck and success in the future. going to learned from the start..and i wish to reach the top :)

*SIGH*

Feel depressed about your work? That kind of burden you feel every morning of your life instead of feeling happy about going to work? That's what i feel. Owhhh... Jobs really sucks !

I got promotion last month and my promotion to Marketing Officer will starts by this July. Am I feel happy about it? Firstly,Yes. But now? No!

Firstly i feel happy. happy with the fact that what I've done, my contributions to this Bank has been seen by my bosses and what i get in return? A Promotion !
But promotions means more works to be done. more pressures to handle. Do I have enough strength to endure it? I guess not. As I myself already have lots of things that stressed me out. I dont think i can handle another pressures in my life. I dont have that confidence. Am I stupid? Yes I indeed so stupid for feeling so bad about this promotion. Promotions on the other hand means a way to a better career. better future..

But what can I do if I dont have that confidence at all? Im sick of this job. wanna look for another job that I'll love. and I'll feel happy every morning of my life with my lovely jobs awaits me. But what kind of jobs that I'll love? I dont get any idea at all. All I want now is a break. be away from this job. resign maybe? and start looking for jobs after I rest enough..Yeahh... that was just a dream. the reality is,by tomorrow I still have to wake up in the morning, feel so burdened, go to work and face the reality....*SIGH*

With You Until The End

Tracklist :

01.獨一無二 – Only You
02.美麗的誤會 – Beautiful Mistakes
03.拼什麼 – Hero In Vain
04.Touch My Heart
05.舞所遁形 – Nowhere to Hide
06.怕安靜 – Silence Phobia
07.強出頭 – Brave Death
08.忍住 – Pains Swallowed
09.口頭纏 – MagicWords
10.愛享瘦 – Let Love Show
11.拼什麼 (獨秀知音版) – Hero In Vain

Extras :

01. 一萬零一夜 - The 10001st Night
02. 陪你到最後 - With You Until The End


陪你到最後 - With You Until The End MV


"陪你到最後 - With You Until The End".. Ever have someone like this?that no matter what happens, he/she will stay by your side? Its rare ! Even sometimes bestfriends cant do this either..But I do need this kind of companion. Im loving this song ! the songs that he wrote for his fans as he knows that no matter what happens, his fans will give him the best supports and he'll overcome all obstacles in his career as long as his fans keep on supporting him.
I keep on repeating this song along with Aaron Yan's 只看見妳 (I Can See Nothing But You) lately. Show Luo's my favourite singer, host,dancer, and actor. His new album"獨一無二 – Only You" is awesome. cant get bored of it. and his songs always accompany my day.every morning and nights. see how much i love him? :)

Bleeding

Today, once again...I witness the happiness of others..without getting the idea of when mine will come.. Im kinda feel bad today..so weird having this feeling right? Im supposed to be happy for them.and yes, Im happy for the two couples. but between that happiness, I envy them. for having such a great partner for each other...

Then here I am...home earlier today as I actually feel kinda weird going out with the two couples. better stay at my rooms. with my lappy, dvds, novels n musics..

I hate loneliness. but sometimes its better to be alone and happy rather than having lots of peoples around but feel so empty. know what? I can fake a smile.or even a laugh. Im good at acting happy in front of others. and no one will know that Im bleeding inside. Funny,huh? for playing fake to others. But I think thats good. for not ruining others mood by showing how i really feel..

In the end, Im bleeding again today.bleeding inside.drowning to my own nightmares by seeing too many happiness in front of me. Im selfish.dont I?

只看见你(I Can See Nothing But You)

Aaron Yan from Fahrenheit has released his solo album few weeks back. and i really love his new songs.

Track Listing :

1. "下一個我" Xia Yi Ge Wo (The Next Me)
2. "只看見妳" Zhi Kan Jian Ni (I Can See Nothing But You)
3. "一觸即發" Yi Chu Ji Fa (Touch and Go)
4. "最後一眼" Zhui Hou Yi Yian (Just One Look) feat. Olivia Ong
5. "忽然之間" Hu Ran Zhi Jian (Suddenly)
6. "The Truth That You Leave" - Piano cover

"只看見妳" Zhi Kan Jian Ni (I Can See Nothing But You) MV



From this album, this song is the one i love the most..Its so illogical when things come to the word "Love".. There're millions of peoples out there.but there's only that one "him" or "her" in your mind and eyes...Ever feel that way? Of course everyone else does! This song represents all the people around the world who are falling in love and cant see anyone else but that someone special. Enjoy the song..