Everything does change..
There's something weird between us..
But I don't even know what was that..
I can just pretend everything's fine...
Like there's nothing really matter between us...
Though deep inside my heart..
I'm still not used to it...
There's nothing called fun times when we're together..
Feels so empty..
Somethings missing..
But I believe that as long as I try to get used to it..
Everything'll be fine..
习惯就好...
We went to Fahrenheit Concert with Special Price!!!
Thanks to Winson for thisss...
I've been so curios about the concert from the first time I saw their advertisement on newspaper...I wanna go...but the ticket prices are so high..and that's why I always think that it's such a dream for me to join the concert...
But here it is...
A few days back,I got a phone call from Vent..saying that a friend of her offered her the tickets for two...plus a room voucher..with such a special price..its because that a fans from Bandung couldn't make her way to Medan..I'm so happy with it..and within minutes, We accepted the offer..hahaaa..
Its just a few days to the concert..Its 21st December when we accepted the offer while the concert was on 25th December..Its on Christmas...I found myself so hard to get asleep after accepting the offer..cause I'm so happy...I'm tooo happy for it...Seeing them Face to face was like a dream come true for me..
There comes the day...25th December 2009..
We arrived at Brastagi at almost 1pm...We did joined the meet and greet session...and each of us got 2 CDs...two from that fans and we bought two more for ourselves...It was such a strict concert as we are not allowed to take cameras during the meet n greet sessions and the concert...They found out mine and they took it..Then I just took some pictures using mobile phone..
I found myself breathless and speechless the time they showed up...They are soooo SHUAIIII!!!really...I feels like crying...cause I'm so damn happy..hahaaa...
I wrote X'mas cards for them...and I gave them during the meet and greet..and I did talked to them..I still remember that Jiro was the most gentle guy out of four..the way he hold my hands makes me feels like a princess..and his damn good eyes...I'm completely melting...I said Merry Christmas to each of them..WuZhun also damn shuaiii...I couldn't believe there's a guy out there,having that perfect combination on his face...Calvin was so friendly when he said thanks for the Xmas cards..and I found out that Aaron was so quiet..just say thanks and smile..I did read a news saying that he's currently having an ear infections...hope he's doing well..poor him..
At 5pm...
The concert starts...as I have mentioned before..there're no cameras allowed..But I'm so lucky that they didn't recognized my camera...and here it is...there're only me and a girl standing in front using cameras..while others only use their mobile phone for pictures..haha..LUCKY MEEE!!!
Their songs "出神入化" came up..with their MV...but none of them coming up to the stage..as the MV flows and their voice from the MV slowly out,suddenly Aaron came up to stage...and everyone screaming like crazy...But we finally know that we're misuderstood...He came up..with his arrogant face..staring at the upper side of the audience and said..."Please..!!Be Professional while working!!"...OMG....all of us shocked...so shocked of how he is so brave to scold the one who are responsible for the sound system..after that he went back stage and the songs slowly started again...Then four of them came up..we are so HIGH during the concert..but a bit disappointed with what Aaron did at the beginning...I thought that it is not appropriate for a star to do that in front of his fans..doesn't he ever think of how his fans feels after he did that kind of thing?
Fahrenheit did sang lots of songs..all of their songs are so high...and I love their songs sooo muchhh..I did take lots of photographs and videos..there's times where Jiro prank his fans like he's going to fall downstage...as he did that,he realise that he's really gonna fall down..hahaaa..He's so lucky that his fans help him and his manager also ran to the stage to help him...he's so cute..LOL...There're only Calvin and Jiro who talked so much during the concert..They are damn funny...Wuzhun was a bit quite...
They played games with fans..I did raised my hands but unluckily I didn't get pointed...Calvin said that if he lost to Wuzhun, he'll stay in Indonesia and joined Indonesia entertainment industry..and he really lost to Wuzhun..LOL..Jiro scream..."辰亦儒....留下来!留下来!留下来!"...lol...he's damn funny...at the end, They really sang "留下来"...and suddenly Arron sat down at the side of the stage..it's actually in front of me..hahaaaa...The others followed him as well..Before the concert ends,Calvin said to the audience.."Please wait for me..I'll make my way through Indonesia's entertainment industry!"LOL....He's super funny..!!
The concert ends,we wait them outside the theater..waiting for them to changes their clothes and make their way back to their rooms..They finally came up and when they are in their rooms,Aaron walked to the balcony and say "hi" to us..while Jiro took his camera and also walked to the balcony..took photos of us...his fans...who are waiting downstairs...I saw him smiling!
We got back to our rooms when suddenly Vent mobile phone rang..its from Winson..saying that there're two more sits available...For the gala dinner with Fahrenheit..!!OMG...We then went to the gala dinner..but no cameras allowed..we could only see them...huhuuu..but its already so lucky for us..
The next morning, We woke up at 4am...as we already know that there're off at 6...we wait for them beside the pool...They out at 6.30...and I'm so speechless when I saw JIRO...He's so stylish..He is the most stylish out of four...Aaron and WuZhun are the most simple one....We only say bye-bye to themm...
Its so worth it for us to watched the concert...I'm so happy..damn happy...I'm so melting because of Jiro..dunno why...I really could fall in love with a guy like him..who are so humorous,friendly and nice..though I love Wuzhun at first,but after watching the concertzI completely fall in love with Jiro..Lol...Maybe I've going crazy after the concertttt..hahahaaaa
HAPPY...There're too much happiness in my life after watching their concert..an unreal happiness actually...I'm so afraid that this kind of happiness will end soon..
Its December...I couldn't believe how this year passed so fast...I've "survived" in Medan for half year!and I've been working for almost 4 months!Omgggg...Its just like yesterday when I had my last paper....
I've had my reunion with friends since yesterday...18th of December..when almost all of us gathered...sur,vent,lice,win,pp,hen n me...Its quite fun...we went to eat,sing and movie....It's been a while since the last time I saw them...
But the worst thing is...My best friends gathered in Sg...both adut n apui..haizzz..really want to join them....But its impossible!adut come back this tuesday and there'll be a reunion for us too...I'm so happy with that..but too bad...apui couldn't join us since he's not going back this christmas..
Another good news...an old friend of mine...contact me from facebook..saying that she's going back this christmas with her boyfriend..and she asked me out!It's been two years since we last met..
Much good news this end of 2009..I'm starting to feel that I've slowly find back my pieces of happiness...Hope its true...
I just watched "New Moon" this evening...and here's my opinion...
Its such a pity of Bella...Being loved by a vampire and a werewolves..LOL..None of them is the real human...None of them can give her the normal love and relationship...
But there's one thing for sure..I'm so impressed of how deep Bella and Edward love each other..(Even its such a movie...But its totally romantic!).
"I couldn't live in a world without you, Bella"....That's what Edward says and I bet there're tons of girls out there....melting when hearing this sentence!Lol...
New Moon...Not much better than Twilight...There's a person out there says..."Twilight = Two Thumbs Up...While New Moon = Two Thumbs Down.." I'm quite agree of it...New Moon is such like a drama..no much action scenes...!Quite Boring during the show...
They say I've changed..Changed to a person they didn't recognised...
Yes..They're right..Then what?
I'm too sicked of being myself...
Someone who've ever think that she'll be dead if she lose her friends..
That everything in life is just about friends,friends and friends...
But now,I've come to realised that there's no such things..
I'm too stupid to keep on thinking like that before..too stupid..
Where're you when I see those people sitting with their friends?I'm alone!
In between these times...I've realised what friendship means..
Someone who will tell you to move on instead of asking you what happened...
Someone who will not keep on asking you to tell them your problems but ask you to go out just to make you feel better...
Someone who you'll share everything and won't feel stupid about things that you shared..
Yeap...That's what I need..But seems like everything's too late, huh?
I'm happy with the friends I have now...The Boys who'll ask me to go out every sat nite..
Some best friends overseas that I'll share things with almost everytime we chatted..Who'll always asked me to be tough and make me laugh when I feel sad...
And also..the one who know how I feel...The one who knows it better than anyoneelse..
After all these things that I've been through..I realised that I'm sicked of "them"!Like how they sicked of me bcause I always keep on commenting about my life here...and that makes me changed until I found these new Friendship now..
They'll never know how I feel..and some of them scolded me once..and it hurts me..really...someone who never know what I mean and how I feel can just scolded me like they know everything about me..what the hell is that?
No offense if you feel you are the one I'm talking about...But that's what I feel right now..
Those friendship that we've made...I'm sure it'll be fixed..but I doubt it'll be the same...
Weekend activities...Going out with Sher...
We went to Sushitei to have some sushi there...after that went to Starbucks...
We chatted till 4.30pm..then we went to the 4th floor..and she finally buy the BBT album!The one that comes with Poster and the POKER!!!omg...I want it sooo...The POKER should be awesome!lol...
We're having such a fun talks...and finally comes a surprised news from her..She told me that she met my friends the day before..actually the girls...she looked around and found out I'm not with themm..Yeappp..I'm not with them..and I dun have any idea that they're hanging out that day..
We hang out till 5pm..and back home at 6.30...
I'm having dinner with my mom then suddenly come a message from John..asked me to go out..Of course I'm in!We went out...the three of us..we eat and chat @ Cambrigde...till late...chatting bout our past..about everything...I'm so happy to have such brothers like them around..cause its so fun!Finally arrived home almost twelve.
Actually I'm having a dinner tonight with John,Jef and Luvi..But don't know why..They suddenly cancel it...huhhhh...I'm so happy two days ago when I received the invitation..but it was cancelled...Fiuhhh...another lonely lonely night...I'm looking forward for weekends..love it soo...hangin out with Sher and Nest..Share our Life story in here..haizzz...I did miss the time We chatted at Starbucks..for hours..till late...but it could only happened in SG!sharing our feelings together can let me forget all my sadness even for just a while..and they are really the one that I could tell what's wrong with me..cause they can also feel it...This sickness..
New Activity on Sunday...Go swimming with Lice...
after that we look for delicious food...hahaa...that's fun..
But that only happens on Weekends...
I still remember last week..Sitting alone at Starbucks..waiting for my mom...(I used to go window shopping every friday after office hours then mom pick me up)
Then I sit alone there..enjoying my favourite "Toffee Nut Frappuccino" that only available on Christmas..
I looked around...Some of them looked at me with weird eyes..maybe they think "what happenned with this girl?sitting alone at Starbucks alone this Friday nite?"..HELLO!!!ITS FRIDAY NIGHT!!!
I'm feeling so bad at that time...and something just make it worst...I saw a bunch of people sitting on the corner...a bunch of them...laughing out loud..joking with each other..Looking so happy that they couldn't stop their laughter..Then I remember those happy times I'm with my friends..just like them..laughing out loud at anywhere..I couldn't help smiling..But after that ..I looked at myself and another chair in front of me..no one is there..What's left is only..Loneliness..
