Blogging..the only place i can throw away all my pain as i never have someone to talk about this...
Yes..we did talk (finally).from a simple chat, u finally tell me your stories with her and the fact that you have fallen for her. know what? i never knew that hurts me so. i never expect this fact, can hurt me this much. though i know we're just friends now. and things have changed.
You told me that was a secret.as you havent tell her bout your feelings. and you've fallen for her for almost a year ady. then, what am i to you? i always expect im the one for you. but i was wrong all the time ! Im just over confident with the fact that we used to be so close to each other. now i knew that im no longer the one.
I..with all my courage, asked you about the past. maybe i was crazy that time as it almost 2am ady. i always think that you'll be mad if i talked bout our past. but i was wronged again. you told me everything. all the things i wanna know stays clear that night. no more misunderstanding, no more awkwardness between us now. you said you never regret the fact that we used to be so close that time. i just wanna tell you that, that moment that i spent with you were the best moments in my life..
Then, now i gotta say goodbye. to you, to our past, to everything that ever contains you and me. we have made things clear. and with our friendship now, i hope things will go even better than the past.
"The very last time i went crazy over you.starting tomorrow, I'll buried our past and starts anew.Im stronger than anyone else. and I'll be fine by time !"
The decision. 2015.
11 years ago
