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为什么我一直觉得好难过?
我只是想要快乐一点..
有那么难吗?
真的不想要这样..
这样的心情真的很痛苦...很不自在..
可以回到以前的我吗?
什么都不在乎的我..
没什么大不了的我..
习惯一个人的我..
现在陪伴我的只剩下孤单和寂寞....
突然觉得很不习惯...

Wants to end it all..

Have you ever been so lonely that nothing seems to make sense?
Well..That's how I feel right now..
I feel like I'm facing everything with nothing but tears and a fake smile..

Dunno why I've been so melancholy these days..with no reasons..
I really wants to cry..but why these tears don't fall?
Wanna watch some touching movies that could make me Cry..
Or find some place where I could Scream Out Loud...
Just to throw away all unhappiness in my heart...
I know for sure that cry or scream couldn't make things any better..
I really need some refreshment..
That could help me find back my soul..
How am I supposed to live this life?
Wish I'm not going to be crazy soon..

Loneliness killin' me softly..

I'm sickkk...so sickkk..
When this all will end?
Although I have been really used to this lonely life..
But I couldn't stand this silence..
I'm missin the time we laughed out loud..
Those craziness and noisiness we shared..
But there's nothing I could do..
What others say is true..
We're lot more happier when we were a teenage girl..
No burden..Just having fun and fool around..
Its so impossible to turned back time..
Though I wished for it so much..

Unreal Life

It's almost a month since I started working..
New Friends..New Life..New Society..
Everything just fine...
But Why Everything seems so unreal to me?
Feels that its just a dream..and I'll get back to a real life soon..
But what kind of real life that I want?
I don't know...
I'm still hoping for the best thing to happen..

Friends or Loved Ones?

If there's only one you could choose..
Which one will it be?

Such a tough question...
A Friend of Mine told me that there's no answer to it..
The only perfect answer is to choose both of them..
Can you really spare your time between your friends and loved ones?
NO..!!
It's just a perfect answer..but in reality...
It's what so-called DILEMMA..
Time is all taken by your loved ones..
and you'll forget the time you should spend with your friends..

Loved Ones don't like your friends..
Jealous of how close you are with your opposite friends..
Always that kind of problem..
Maybe I'm wrong...
Or It's just me who dun understand how they feel..
I don't know..
Just let it be how it should be..
I'm too tired to decide the best solution for this problem...