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Friday 31 December 2010

Happy New Year Everyone !

Im wishing for a great year ahead ! Though idk whether things will be getting better, Im still hoping that this year will be a better year.. after my two " crazy years ".Lol..

2010...
Ive always think that 2010 has been the fastest year in my life. in just blink of eye, 2010 has ended almost an hour ago ! Thats so fast. I still cant imagined how I've passed this last 12 months.
-My life full of loads of works (and loads of probs as well).. Ive worked for one year and three months! and last Tuesday i just got my salary and yearly bonus, etc.Lol
-My life with friends around since July. Vit has BFG and Vin often back here as he need to extend his visit pass. That time has been great ! and i love it so when they're around !
-My life with my loyal probs around. probs with friends, works, and maybe myself. ( as I haven't reconcile with myself )
2010 has been good...Thanks for all the great memories,laughter, joy, happiness, sadness, pain and tears =)

2011...
New Life... New Resolutions...
What will happen this year? still curios! Im still hoping for the best to happen..
Waiting for a new career, new life and new love ! Lol.. (cant consider a new love as i haven't been in love for such a long time) so lets find a new one..new love! hahaaaa..
- start looking for jobs in other banks next months..looking for a better career..hope I got it !
-Be less Emo... I need that so much =p
-Ego? A big NO NO !! should get rid of this things as it almost ruined everything !
-Be stronger...and have the guts to look at the reality in front !
-Let the past be the past..and i wont be bother by that anymore ! (Hope its easy!)

Im wishing everyone a Happy New Year 2011 ! Lets pray for ourselves and make this a better year =)

Tuesday 28 December 2010

Walll...

Finally you realised that ive changed. to someone you dont even recognised. isnt it? You took your way.and keep distances between us.. i know you want to protect yourself. and so do i. but why i cant accept this reality? that we are distances apart while in fact we are close. There's a wall in front. that keep us apart. i dislike this kind of feeling. the fact that we are like strangers to each other. why? i just want us to be friends. and best friends if possible. just that. even best friends seems impossible, i just want to break that wall. i want us to be the one we used to be. without those wall parting us and make things so strange around. what should i do?

Monday 27 December 2010

Xmas...

First day...

Woke up at around 8am, found out my car was stolen by my uncle. Im so mad that time.then i called him and he brought it back to me (Luckily). at around 10am, Im ready to picked Vin. after him, we're looking for a mat for our bbq that night. then we finally went to Lotte Mart (its so far, isnt it?), after there we went to picked Vit..then we went to Macan Yaohan, bought some bbq thingy, then picked my driver and after that we went for lunch at KFC. after lunch, we picked Lice and Jef then we're ready to go ! Arrived at around 6pm.. We figured out that the door keys were unable to open the doors. my driver and Vit tried to broke them and we finally entered the villa at around 7pm. got ourselves relaxed for a while when Vin, Vit and my driver still so busy with the doors. Me, Lice and Jef talked about so many things. Jef was a very extrovert person as he can talked about lots of things. till Vin shocked of what we discussed! LOL.

After dinner, we back to Villa. We chatted a lot. laughing out louds and i feels like the whole streets were full of our voices. we're 5.but when we laughed, its like 10 person in that villa =)

We're ready for bbq at 12pm. got the things ready and the bbq started at 1am. Vin and Vit were ones who were responsibles for the bbqs, when Jef was so busy with his cameras and took photos around. Me and Lice? just sit on the mat and laughing at that two guys. saying that they looked so suitable to do that job! The bbqs things look so delicious (believe it or not). the two guys were awesome as they knew how to make the sauce! hehee... Our BBQs ended at around 4am.

Second day....

Woke up at at around 8 plus. went out of my room when i also met jef out from his room as well. we found out that there's quite noisy downstairs. then i found out that my driver was talking to a stranger. that guy was looking for the owner of the villa. Then he talked to Vit, saying bout some villa thingy.we sat at the living room and chatted again. at 10plus, we took our bath and after that we all gathered in my rooms. I put on my make ups and do my hairs when they do their hairs as well. i also helped them with hairs. do some babyliss things! Lol.. we laughed alot at what i did with Vit's hair. hahahaaa.. I love that moments. its quiet rare when we can gathered and do these kind of thingss...We're ready for lunch at 12pm. during our lunch, Jef took lots of my candid photos and guessed what? I loved them so much! Its so natural..

After lunch, we went to temple and the new things called Taman Lumbini. The Taman Lumbini was awesome. but there're not too many things there. just go once and Its enough! we back to Villa and took some sleep. woke up at 6pm, continue with lots of stories from Jef and Vin. took our dinner at 8pm plus. after dinner, back to villa again, doing our Endless stories chatting, laughing out loud again. our neighbors were around 10 person plus, but our laughed really feels like there're 20 persons of us that night. we started our supper with french fries, sausages, and chic wings. found our we're out of gas for cooking. we out from villa and look for gas at around 12am. . our supper started at 1am. supper with full of snacks and beers.. the stories that Vit shared really left us laughed with tears. lol

Last day....

Woke up at 9am. and also gathered in my room doing their hairs. we ate our lunch and back to medan at 1pm. arrived at 3pm. all of us really dont feels like going home at all. we ended up go jcoing till 6pm.


This time holiday was fun.. with lots of unexpected probs and endless stories. the stories really make me laughed with tears so many times. and that bbq things, really eat till drop!
Love this xmas holiday. Its Fun as Jef also said that.. we planned to go again. but still looking for a perfect time =)

Wednesday 8 December 2010

rich guys poor hearts

Ever met such a rich guys but never willing to give out their money? I met these kinds in my family.okay. im not talking bad bout my family.but that's it. dun get why they can be so stingy to others. its my uncle. guessed wat. my grandma's join their trip to china. but he dint even willing to sponsor my grandma. he said that my grandma should asked her daughter to sponsor her and not him. GODD!! u know it so well that my mom and aunts were widows.and mom still has 2 kids to raised. where's your brain huh?i know my mom was willing to sponsor a bit. but as wat i thought, the one who should sponsor was him! as he was the richest here. He even bought a flat in Brisbane for her daughter and asked her daughter to stop working and enjoy life as he could give out all his money for his childs happiness. then you are not willing to give out some for your mother??? i really dunno what you've been thinking! you are super nonsense..and my mom and aunts kinda hate him. as he dint even know how to be the eldest in this family.

My cousin was back for holiday till march next year. and know what?he said that he has no cars to drive here. then my grandma lend him hers.the super irrational thing was. they have four cars. one for my uncle,one for my aunt, another for his brother and the last one he can drive right? and still..he insist to drive grandma's. i was pissed like hell as that means i don't have any car to drive for the next three months.and my cousin even told me to go office my bus.damn it! i really dunno how rich guys have been thinking. they have been out of their minds. that pissed me off so much!

My aunt told my grandma to asked her car back but still they said that they have no cars to drive.hell!! i hate it so much! rich guys never have enough.they have theirs but still need others. Damn it!!

Tuesday 7 December 2010

Back

Im back from holiday..so fast, isnt it? It was quite fun as my sisters always made me laugh along our holiday.lol..This holidayyy..hmmm...I ate alot actually.hahaaa..and feels like ive putting some weight again and again!! huhhhh!! how to put these fat away!

and this is my third times going to USs! quite bored as i know every single side of the USs ady!what can i say? Im just like a tour leader recently. taking my friends and sisters to the USs! Ouhhhh...I ate Chiliss as well..it was tasty!!hahaaa...

And Im back now..i still remember that ive promised to be so fine when im back. well..lets start anew by today.back to those times in life that i should stand by myself. okay. after these trip..i realised that maybe i can only trust and depend on myself. too much interactions with others just ended up hurting myself.and that kind of feeling was like hell. there's no one i could trust again.Im not that strong that i seems to be. I can laughed out loud in front of others. just to make them happy and make me seems happy. but no one knows how i felt inside. sad huh? i dun wan to be emo again. but how come this hurt never leave me?

Sometimes,i really dunno whether im the one who were nonsense or im the one who were rational. or im gone insane ady? dunno. i dont wish to have any hurting things again. i wanna find back the old me. the strong me that never scared of evrytg that's gonna happen. being me is not easy at all. i need to be much more understanding to be considerate to those who were irrational. yeaa..that's what im gonna do now. be lot more considerate and continue to be the one who sacrifice.till infinite time..

Thursday 2 December 2010

Goodbye!

Im leaving for sg tomorrow.so sudden right? yeap. That's what i want right now.disappearing for a while..This time trip. 4 days.and I'll be back by Tuesday. No one knows about my leaving. I kept it as a secret..No one will know bout it.cause it's a very short trip.isn't it?

Im feeling so bad recently. Those probs ruined my mood for the past two weeks. i know im nonsense at all.and childish.that i leave just because of these.but the real things is. I just decided to go by today.with my two sisters.we've planned to go yesterday but as my passport was still in process, so we still not sure to go.

I texted you before.telling you that i felt so sorry for it.You said sorry for the second time.and as i read you text, Im feeling so good like hell. i just know i cant lose my friends anymore.for every nonsense things that i done.

Im fine now actually.after all things cleared, I'm feeling so well. I know you dont like those misunderstanding between us.but what could i say? i dun feel good bout it as well. You asked me to forget all these things. Yes..I know that's the best thing for us..But i still need to leave for a while. to clear up my mind.and I'll be back on Tuesday. and I'll be so fine by then.I promise!